Saturday, June 26, 2004
shouts out loud: i hate euro.
first spain didnt get into the quarter finals. and now france got trashed by greece! im not watching euro anymore! arg! poop henry, poor torres. stupid! this is so not happening. ahh! i didnt bet laa, but still!
went to surprise han bin with his birthday dinner yesterday. lol, sounds dumb ehh? met up with some of my ex-ncos and rong li before meeting han bin and his girlfriend. ate, the food not bad. maybe i can hold my birthday lunch there too. lol, had a fun time. lol, i dont really get to see my ex=ncos often you know?
was supposed to go to CHS homecoming day today. lol, i promised alvin. but, because i caught the match last night, i overslept! lol. so, im so sorry alvin! =p
ive decided to go for a facial on my birthday. lol.
expelliarmus!
livingherdreams;
+ 3:24 PM
Friday, June 25, 2004
as requested, im updating my list. lol.
my wishlist:
1. a pair of levis jeans
2. burberry brit *this is expensive*
3. a pair of dreamcatcher earrings *noone seems to be able to find this*
4. a schoolbag *the adiddas, france one!*
5. a clutch
6. the lv handbag
7. a bohemian top! yes! *i dont know where to shop for this*
that should be it. lol. =p
livingherdreams;
+ 1:15 PM
shouts out loud: tired!
its been a long time since i blogged. lol! and i cant remember what i do! thats worst! lol. nvm, shall update on wednesday and yesterday! lol.
wednesday
movie marathon! lol! brought my sister and brother to watch harry potter. cool! this time, instead of watching the movie, i was listening to the sounds! lol, but its still so cool! its a nice movie! hah! the second time too, okay! then after that i came out early and had to sit at the front of the cinema entrance and wait for alvin li. do you know how pathetic i looked? lol. thne he came, we bought the tickets and went to eat. around the world in 80 days is a hilarious movie. hilarious but okay. i think jackie chan could have given better. lol. but owells, not too bad. should catch it on a 6.50 day. then after movie, went to eat again. lol, now you know why im fat! lol.
thursday
met yuchern earlier to accompany her to shopping. i think we went to 3 different levis outlet and 2 different adiddas outlet to find what she want, and we didnt! lol. went to levis to try a pair of jeans, not bad. (or so says yuchern.) but yuchern kindly gave me a pair too. *cause she cant wear it!* but still, thanks a million! lol. then we went to U.R.S., saw the word 'sale'. lol! we bought the same of sandals, different colour. then we went down to jinfengs bbq. damn it! they set me up! lol, and i didnt at the very least suspect it! lol. they made me walk the dog, and when i came back, they had a birthday cake. i still had the cheek to ask whose birthday it is! lol. but my birthday is still a week away! aiyooh, but cool! thanks many many lots! lol. then went to meet alivn to fetch kimberly. could tell she had alot of fun. but i saw this guy who fractured his arm, lol. its her buddy. then we went to eat and i came home shortly after. and i satyed up to watch the match! lol, but i fell asleep midway. so who won? lol.
meeting kim later, to go for something. hah! wouldnt tell you what it is!
i will not allow history to repeat itself.
livingherdreams;
+ 12:58 PM
Monday, June 21, 2004
kope-d another one. =D
1. YOUR HOROSCOPE?
--- cancer
2. SiNGLE OR TAKEN?
--- single.
3. iF TAKEN, BY WHO?
--- if. =D
4. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN SERiOUSLY HURT BY THE
PERSON YOU LOVE/D?
--- yea.
5. WHAT WOULD BE YOUR REASON iF YOU TURNED
SUiCiDAL?
--- doing this. *hah!*
6. iS SUiCiDE REALLY KiLLiNG YOURSELF?
--- no, it could be killing YOU; if it pleases.
7. PREFER COUNTRY OR CLASSiC?
--- classic. theyre classics because theyre classic.
8. PREFER CUTE/iDiOT OR SMART/UGLY?
--- cute;smart. lol!
9. ARE YOU iN A STABLE RELATiONSHiP WiTH YOUR
BF/GF/CRUSH?
--- this is a stupid quiz that repeats itself!
10. YOU`D EXPECT A TEXT MESSAGE USUALLY FROM:
--- a person. a hamster couldnt have texted me a msg right?
11. HAVE A BEST FRiEND THAT iS iN THE OPPOSiTE
GENDER? WHO?
--- yea, you dont have to know. lol.
12. WHAT DO YOU LiKE DOiNG WHEN YOU`RE DEPRESSED?
--- sleep?
13. CHEERFUL OR BORiNG?
--- cheerfully bored.
14. DESCRiBE A PERFECT DATE.
--- one without YOU. lol, that'll be the most fun!
15. EVER WONDERED WHY NOBODY KNOWS WHY THE SKY
iS BLUE? WHAT DO YOU THiNK?
--- theres a reason, somewhere.
16. EVER BEEN HURT BY LOVE?
--- yea.
17. WiLL YOU EVER MAKE THE SAME MiSTAKE AGAiN?
WITH LOVE???
--- one bitten, twice shy dear. =p
18. EVER HATED ANYONE LiKE HELL?
--- oh yea, but its a thing. that BLACK one?
19. DO ANYTHiNG WHEN A PERSON BREAKS UP
WiTH YOU AFTER ONE DAY?
--- i usually just cry then go to sleep. lol.
20. GiVE ONE WORD THAT BEST DESCRiBES WHAT
YOU`RE FEELiNG NOW.
--- pain.
21. DO YOU BELiEVE iN YOURSELF?
--- yes, i do! =D
22. EVER PHYSiCALLY HURT YOURSELF?
--- ive pulled my own muscle before! wait, how about i stepped on my finger and fractured it?
23. EVER VERBALLY HURT YOURSELF?
--- like saying im dunb? lol, yes!
24. MOTTO iN LiFE.
--- believe in yourself?
26. HAVE YOU EVER HAD *EXTRA* FEELiNGS ABOUT A
BEST FRiEND FROM THE OPPOSiTE GENDER?
--- yea.
27. iF YES, WHAT DiD YOU DO ABOUT iT? iF NO,
WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
--- =D
28. iS FAME & MONEY THE MOST iMPORTANT THiNGS iN
YOUR LiFE?
--- fame is, at least it is to me. lol.
29. DO YOU MAKE ANY MOVEMENTS OR SOUNDS WHEN
YOU`RE SLEEPiNG?
--- like snore? lol, nope!
30. ARE YOU DiFFiCULT TO WAKE UP?
--- not really, unless im drugged.
31. HOW OFTEN DO YOU SLEEP?
--- erm, what i need to.
32. ARE YOU CONVENiENT WiTH THAT?
--- YES.
33. LAST, HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT YOU WERE PERFECT?
--- nope, but if you stop striving to be perfect, you might as well die.
and another one, lol.
1.WHAT IS YOUR NAME?: eng yuwen
2. WHAT COLOR OF TOP ARE YOU WEARING??: black.
3. WHAT SONGS ARE U LISTENING RIGHT NOW?: john willians - double trouble.
4. WHAT IS YOUR hPHONE NUMBER?: *hint* it has 8 numbers.
5. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?: duck rice. eekk.
6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE: red!
7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW?: humid ahh.
8. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?: my mom.
9. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?: clothes?
10. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS?: no one sent me this!
11. FAVORITE DRINK?: apple with aloe vera! *yumms*
12. WHO DO U LIKE?: everyone but YOU!
13. WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND?: duhh!
14. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT?: netball?
15. EYE COLOR?: black.
16. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?: tried. lol.
17. FAVORITE MONTH?: july, lol. and i wonder why?
18. FAVORITE FOOD?: lol! japanese? hehe.
19. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?: the best bet
20. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?: july 4th.
21. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?: nope, i asked my mom out.
22. FAVORITE BOARD GAME(S): checkers?
23. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT?: eat, read and sleep.
24. FAVORITE SMELL(S): buberry brit. =D
25. CAN YOU TOUCH YOUR NOSE WITH YOUR TONGUE?: nope.
26. BUTTERED, PLAIN OR SALTY POPCORN?: salty without a doubt!
27. FAVORITE CAR?: now, honda s2000.
28. FAVORITE FLOWER?: morning glory! lol.
29. HOW MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING?: 3? lol, unlucky number.
30.CAN YOU JUGGLE?: no!
31. FAVORITE DAY(S): sundays?
32. RED OR WHITE WINE?: red
33. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY?: eat and shop? then eat again?
34. DO YOU CARRY A DONOR CARD?: no.
35. LIFETIME GOAl: to rid my life of YOU. lol, no. to act!
36. FIRST THING U THINK OF WHEN U WAKE UP IN THE
MORNING?: why do i have to wake up so early?
37. WHAT IS YOUR BIRTH DATE?: july 4th.
done! =D
livingherdreams;
+ 9:14 PM
shouts out loud: i miss kim already.
couldnt blog yesterday, shall blog today.
yesterday.
woke at 8. wanted to get up and bathe, but found out that i had a major headache. hai, and i was flu-y. so i decided to skip tuition and went back to sleep. finally woke up at 12.30, which means i missed spongebob. damn, why couldnt i just wkae up? hai. then slacked around the house until i decided to bathe and go to my uncles house. (2 minutes walking distance) then, i went there and eat, and eat and eat and only eat! lol, to think i said no bbq food for me. but well, even my mother didnt bother to stop me. lol. called kim, to ask her what was her flight. i told her to behave herself. dont later, i send off a girl, and got to receive a guy! *winkz* then she made me meet her at changi on thursday! what to do? you dont get a 6 years friend everyday, do you? so i promised her. gosh. then i went home and fell asleep. explains why i didnt blog huh? =p
today.
was supposed to watch harry potter with my brother today. guess what? i woke up early and he told me he got tuition. so smart. so, i decided to slack at home. but, out of a sudden. mr alvin li msged me dating me out. *hah!* so okay, cause his plan to study sounded good. (i havent completed my holiday homework yet!) so we went out and study. and study and study and study. lol, todays boring; cause i only studied. (not because i was with alvin!)but this is the first time i did so much literature notes. wow. lol. going to road safety park tomorrow, with the sec1s. eek, scary. lol. hope they behave themselves. i cant take any more of this havoc, im getting old. lol! =D
my head still hurts.
a place to make my future mine.
livingherdreams;
+ 9:01 PM
Saturday, June 19, 2004
shouts out loud: okay, im spoilt!
haha, i didnt trim my manes in the end. lol. but went walking around town with miss chian while she enjoyed swiping her card. and she asked me what i want for my birthday, which really got me thinking. and since i have a quiz on my blog already, why not another one? i did this myself! =D
Name one thing you really really want now:
1. a pantech G-500 *abit far-fetched; dont worry, this is for my mum to read*
Name another thing you really want:
1. a pair of levis or vintage jeans that i dont actually have to fold! *fine, im short!*
Damn, name all the things you want (*giggles*):
1. a pair of dreamcatcher earrings
2. a schoolbag
3. a clutch
4. burberry brit *smells greeeaaat*
5. the lv handbag *yumms; and its burns your pocket*
6. a pair of sandals from U.R.S.
7. 11 marks for o'levels *you cant help me, i know*
8. contacts *hah!*
i'll update when i think of somemore, lol. meanwhile, miss chian! =D hehe.
being able to be me in front of you is the biggest gift, thank you.
livingherdreams;
+ 11:10 PM
shouts out loud: *coughs*
bad bad way to start a day? wake up and realise your left tonsil is swollen, red and double the size of the other. what if i really have to get my tonsils removed? =x i hope not, its painful. my head still hurts. this is weird, ive never been sick for so long before. lets just hope i recover. go back to school, and face my a maths teacher. i havent tols her im dropping her subject yet. eekks!
have you ever felt like you could read a song? i dont mean songs with lyrics. i did, last night. just before i went to bed, i plugged my earphones into my ears and played whatever that was in my mp3. okay, it was the harry potter soundtrack; i should have known. and then, it came to this song. wow, i dont know what happen. it just seemed like the notes were converting into words, and i was reading it. i could tell what the composer was trying to express, i could read his mind! its freaky, but its so nice.
im going to meet miss chian later, to get her it-has-already-reached-my-nose fringe cut. talk about me looking like a mop. =x
arg, theres a bbq at my uncles house tomorrow. and guess who cant eat? yea, me! *sulks*
something wicked this way comes.
livingherdreams;
+ 12:03 PM
Friday, June 18, 2004
shouts out loud: its gone!
yea, my fevers gone! lol, im so happy. i wonder if my brain got toasted in the process, my thinking has been pretty slow recently. like when miss chian called me, i knew it was her; but guess what? i picked up and ask who was it! maybe it was like that all along! hehe.
received kimberly's message today, asking what i want my jersey number *netball* to be. and guess? 12! henry's number in euro. was torn between henry and torres, but i chose henry. prove i aint racist! oops. =x but henry's really good, though he hasnt really proved it in euro 2004 yet. well, at least france is at the top of the group. haha!
did i mention that my tonsils are coming out? i bet they are. especially my left one. i was coughing today and it felt like it could have just glided out if i didnt hold on to it! cool, people usually pay alot to remove their tonsils you know. the dead would probably turn in their grave if they found out i did mine for free. =)
meeting miss chian tomorrow, to trim my tresses, mane, hair, whatever? the thing thats residing on my head. its growing beyond human belief. i cant see if i keep my frigne straight! lol, i mean, i look like that dog breed which looks like a kitchen mop! and i look like rupert grint! yea, the mop! gawd, but i dont want to cut my hair. i want to keep it till it reaches my *ahem* and then perm it! hehe! stop dreaming about rebonding girls! the straight iron plate hair is out! curls are in. believe me, i read mags. lol. so, im going to keep my hair long this time. for the sake of graduation night, for the sake of looking more like a girl, for real. lol! =D
theres a carla santini in everyone's life, and i found mine. go away!
livingherdreams;
+ 10:04 PM
Thursday, June 17, 2004
shouts out loud: sick.
17 more days.
im so glad i actually woke up. okay, it feels damn bad to be sick. okay, this is nonsense. who feels great when theyre sick? lol. but i seriously think its time to change my family doctor.
okay, so yesterday; after one dosage, my condition wasnt getting any better. so i thought: maybe i will be fine after a few more dosages. and last night, before going to sleep i took my temperature. 37.3 degrees. i was so so so happy! lol. but this morning, guess what? it returned to 38.5 degrees again! hai, what good is medicine? =| and the medicine tastes horrible; very horrible. and i have to swallow 6 seperate pills. imagine the amount of water you need to swallow the pills; its enough to make you full. hai, so i ended up eating a piece of bread for lunch. hai, if theres one good thing from being sick, it is that i dont feel like eating. lol. =p
im supposed to meet miss chian to get her hair cut tomorrow? gawd, i wonder if i can even wake up. lol, okay, im joking. suddenly, i feel like eating sushi. i dont know why.
i swear im going to finish my holiday homework this time.
maybe i dont need you to survive! lol, i dont!
livingherdreams;
+ 2:55 PM
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
shouts out loud: 39.1 degrees!
that was my highest temperature recorded today, and as im typing here; it is 38.5 degrees. lol.
was supposed to meet kimberly to go to the gym today, bt when i woke up, my eyes with radiating. yea, as in giving out hot air. lol. so i took my temperature, and to my horror, it was 38.9! lol. i wanted to get up and tell my pop, but the moment i sit up, i felt the whole room spinning in front of me. so, nope; not a good idea. called kim to tell her that i was running a temperature.
went to the doctors shortly after that. did i mention how much i dislike my pop? he was scolding me for being sick when we were in the way to clinic! what is his problem! it aint my fault that i feel sick so suddenly. arg. then came home, ate my medicine and went back to sleep. was expecting to feel better when i woke up, but my temperature went up! think its time i find another family doctor. lol.
feeling slightly better now, lol. no more giddy-ness. lol. =D its been a long time since i was so sick.
its more than just love to keep it going.
livingherdreams;
+ 10:50 PM
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
shouts out loud: crapp.
19 more days.
the best bet is crap. but it is its crappiness which is so singaporean. lol, i mean. if youve watched the show you would understand what i mean. no doubt i must raise my hands and admit defeat to jack neo who used hokkien so tactfully. lol, i was just wondering whether it was a chinese or dialect show. but if youre in a really bad mood and youre lacking of some jokes, watch it. it'll make you laugh, laugh at its intelligence or at its stupidity; you'll have to fidn it out yourself.
why do i sound like a movie ad in my blog? =x
im going to the gym tomorrow again! yea! gym! gym! gym! im nuts. lol, and after that i shall take my brother to go watch harry potter with me. lol. such a nice sister i am. =p
im having a really bad flu. i dont know why, just came all of a sudden. damn it, not sure if i can still jog tomorrow. oh no, how? i like crying. hai. i shall try to go stop myself from tearing.
i finally bought the harry potter soundtrack! gawd! its so damn cool. and daniel radcliffe is so damn hot. *yumms.* lol, this world is unfair. *grinns.*
nows the chance to let time stand still.
livingherdreams;
+ 10:33 PM
shouts out loud: bored; to tears.
so bored, i started koping things from yuchernn's blog. hah! too bad; if you still dont know her new blog address! hah! lousy fool! =p
Starting time: 14 37
Full name: eng yuwen
Sex: female
Birthday: independence day! =)
Name three bad habits you have:
1)paranoid
2)overly paranoid
3)extremely paranoid
Name three animals you like:
1)kittens
2)puppies
3)anything that is not dumb
Name four television shows you love:
1)spongebob squarepants
2)what i like about you
3)grounded for life
4)magic school bus *im watching it now!*
Name three drinks you regularly drink:
-water
-milk
-apple with aloe vera! *yumms*
Have you ever...
1. Fallen for one of your best friends?
hmm; i think so. lol, yea.
2. Had one of your best friends fall in love with
huh?
3. Been in love?
love is a big word to use; my friend.
4. Used someone?
to do what? lol, ive used my sister to get me a cup of water before. does it count?
5. Ever been used by someone?
yea, my sister asked me to get her a cup of water too.
6. Cheated on someone?
cheating is bad.
7. Done something you regret?
yea.
8. The last person you touched?
my computer; oh you asked person.
9. You talked to?
miss chian.
10. You hugged?
my bolster.
11. You yelled at?
my pop.
12. Who broke your heart?
technically; its impossible to break muscle tissues. *winks*
13. Colour of your hair?
black,was suppose to be natural brown; or so said the damn dye kit.
14. Have tattoos?
a butterfly one; i want that.
15. Have a girlfriend/boyfriend?
i cant possibly have a boyfriend, i need to focus on my acting career! lol. *confessionsofateenagedramaqueen*
16. Like to dance?
yea! without a single doubt!
17. Think you are cultured?
im not cultured; i thought only milk can be cultured? =p
18. Like to drive fast?
if im on a bike that is. =D
19. Believe in God or Devil?
GOD
20. Who do you talk to on the phone with?
my mum?
21. What should you be doing right now?
bathing so i can go meet miss chian. lol.
22. What are you listening to?
lindsay lohan - that girl
24. Favorite Season?
autumn.
25. Is ice cream the best thing in the world?
only if i made it. *laughs*
26. Who is your favorite singer?
lindsay? myabe hilary; shall see.
27. Single flower or a dozen?
999.
28. Silver, gold or platinum?
i'll have to say, platinum. even the name sounds so cool.
29. Candle lit dinner in a restaurant or at
home?
depends on what kind of food im served with at home. lol.
30. Roses?
white ones only; please.
31. Silly or serious romantic?
sweet. lol, told you im bored.
33. Do you consider yourself a romantic?
depends on who im with, i guess.
34. Watched a sunrise/sunset?
yes! and its the most beautiful thing ive ever seen.
35. What CD is in your CD player right now?
forbidden city - the soundtrack.
36. Who is your favorite film star?
orlando? can i write more? please please please? lol.
37. Favorite Disney characters?
does spongebob count?
38. Favorite fast food?
mos. burger that is. lol.
39. Favorite book?
harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban! lol, best out of all the 5!
40. Favorite sports teams?
heh, arsenal.
41. Favorite song?
mandy?
42. What room is your computer in?
living room.
43. Happy or Scary movies?
scary comedies! there are such movies okay!
44. What will you be when you grow up?
the next drama queen! lol, i think.
45. Who will respond the quickest?
definitely not miss chian.
46. End Time?
14 55 *damn, im slow.*
someone please steal the moon for me.
livingherdreams;
+ 2:33 PM
Monday, June 14, 2004
shouts out loud: love my country; not.
and you know why i say that? if you refer to my previous post, i actually wrote that singapore has 4 billion people! hah! BILLION. this is dumb. we're not THAT big. lol, in fact we're small. =p
went to the gym today. started at 9.30 instead of 9 because we were late, had to buy the ticket and then they had to accompany me up to buy a towel again. lol, but it was nice. i mean it felt great to be exercising instead of munching at home. lol. but i dont like this gym, im going to the toa payoh one this wednesday! wohoo! =D my muscles are sore now, but. lol. nvm. enhoyed myself alot!
suddenly, ive got nothing to do! i mean, nothing as in nothing. lol. i came home and slept all the way till now, that mean 5 hours. 3 hours. i hardly have the chance to nap like that. its okay, i dont mind sleeping. bleahz.
oh yes! rachel thinks that daniel radcliffe is hot too! lol, finally; someone agrees with me! =D
mary-kate and ashley are going seperate! they are taking the reins over their million-coporate, Dualstar entertainment and going seperate! lol. theyre attending college and doing different stuff. mary-kate wants to paint and cook! lol, ironical. so its no more olsen twins but mary-kate and ashley. lol, good bye to hollywood's best known twins. =)
search within my soul.
livingherdreams;
+ 5:35 PM
Sunday, June 13, 2004
shouts out loud: im a hollywood giiirrl!
and thats not something bad, it just goes to show how much chance i give our local performers. lol! i mean, hollywood is cool, intriguing, not to mention; scandalous. (the aaron carter, lindsay lohan, hilary duff case.) i mean the closest we can get is anita sarawak. (?!?!) i dont even think i spelt her name correctly. it just goes to show how much our showbiz here is recognised. okay, we have jack neo. who i very much respect for being able to capture the touchy yet common themes in singapore and make money out of it. i mean, thats like what? 1 in 4 billion? okay, we have steph sun. thats likes another 1 out of the 4 billion. i mean, it just depresses me and make me think how can i be so sure i may be the next 1 out of the 4 billion people waiting to sink on the small island? *sigh*
tuition. late again; cause jing ting watched spongebob! no fair, i cant watch him no more; no more. shucks! *whines* okay, useless. went there and did this worksheet on patterns. okay, not that i suck at this, but it really was confusing. lol, i actually did a problem only to realise i copied the first half set of the sequence form question 3 and the next from question 4! surprising ive got an answer. lol, life.
greece won! stupid portugal! haha; i didnt bet! =)
im going to the gym! im going to the gym! i going to the gym! lol, yes! i need to lose weight! good! good start! lol, just hope i dont get depressed when kim starts to outdo at everything. yea, EVERYTHING. lol. thatll be tomorrow.
did i mention that im waiting for mean girls, ella enchanted to come out. also, i want to watch hello broadway! but rachels right, the cheapest ticket can already burn a hole in the pocket. damn it. im going to my grandpas house; *weak grinns.
i love unpredictability! =)
livingherdreams;
+ 3:17 PM
Saturday, June 12, 2004
shouts out loud: lagging!
i just watched shrek 2 today. lol, i know im lagging. but i just simply couldnt find someone to watch with me. well, i went with alvin today. seems like he was just as slow as i was. =p its a really stupid yet hilarious show! i simply love it, why? cause it made fun of so much stories, like lord of the rings! nice nice show, that tells us that looks doesnt matter! lol.
othello was greaat. in case you didnt know, othello is one of shakespeare's four big tragedies; including my favourite Hamlet. lol, i mean its cool. though it was a four hour long production, the director did a good job of exploring the tragedy of othello and iago seperately instead of lumping it together; which makes iago the bad guy. but by looking at it differently, people do realise that instead of iago just being the bad guy, he is himself a tragedy. lol, sorry for crapping about othello here. im just overly excited about how good the play was; although we couldnt catch it at first. this just gives me an additional reason to do drama. the ability to instill scuh excitment in teens like me in many years to come. lol. =)
met kimberly for dinner. her dinner, i didnt eat. lol, then went around shopping. okay, i want a clutch and a pair of jeans. found my jeans, couldnt find my clutch. nvm, i shall continue shopping. bought my us seventeen ( damn it, its 8 bucks!)and kim bought these books that were the ones harry potter used in hogwarts. it has really stupid stuff written in it. =D
damn it, theres tuition tml.
whats so beautiful about life is how unfair it is.
livingherdreams;
+ 9:33 PM
Friday, June 11, 2004
shouts out loud: i will live me dream; i just know it.
boo! go away, anti-potter people. it was a nice film and thats that. just because the third film is an emotional one that lacks action flick doesnt mean it aint nice! its important to understand how this teens grow up and how they are feeling. like hermonie's security blanket is actually her books and how harry may be with the group but is not partaking in their conversations. gawd, its a nice and essential film from chamber to goblet. so dont complain! hah! it doesnt mean you have to have voldermort to make it a nice film. though i do agree the book is nicer. but the flick stands alone, so boo!
a wave of emotions just overcame me. and i suddenly found back the confidence i thought i have lost for good. lol, its weird. but i have this feeling i can live my dream; i just feel it. and prove all those hypocrites and cynics out there wrong. very wrong.
camp was fun, for the ncos maybe. i mean, it was maybe perhaps really a leisure camp as many of our officers have pointed out. but, hey i really did enjoyed myself. there was seriously a lack of food for the ncos and we ended up sharing rations with the cadets. i mean, bonding! how sweet can we get? this camp also allowed me to see the true colours of my sqaud mates. both good and bad. lol, i mean it; the bad part. and the worst thing is my ear kept oozing pus while i was in camp. haha! thank goodness i was smart enough to bring my solution. the first night, i slept in the ava room. and thanks to razi, my handphone kept everyone awake cause it was ringing the whole night, which kept all the girls awake. oops! hehe. second night ended up in the staff lounge with my female officer who simply refused to sleep alone with my oc. lol! it was interesting doing refelctions with the cadets. lol! this is the last thing i'll be doing for np, this is the last memory i'll have. and the good thing is, i like this memory. its sweet. lol.
youre too far from me to feel my pain.
'i couldnt possibly have a boyfriend, i need to focus on my acting career.'- lola cep.
livingherdreams;
+ 12:13 AM
Wednesday, June 09, 2004
shouts out loud: the only memory.
i remembered blogging before leaving for camp, blogger sucks.
camp. wow. i dont know where to start. maybe by first thanking desmond, han bin, rong li, rong zhen and kian how for coming down and helping the inexpreienced bunch of ncos. lol.
can i blog again tomorrow? im tired. lol.
to you, the leadership in me will never surpass a korean slave. will it?
livingherdreams;
+ 10:19 PM
Sunday, June 06, 2004
shouts out loud: expecto patronum!
woohoo! why is everyone saying that azkaban isnt up to standard? hey, cut that mexican guy some slack! harry potter has evolved from this kiddish-robes-all-year-round to a much more grown up film. i think alfonso did a great job, compared to chris. its so much darker, so much more intense. yea, i know. the book got cut up until it was nearly unrecognisable, but hey! the first two books were similiar! its so wonderful to be sitting in a theatre, with the first two movies in your memory and phoof! three grown up beautiful actors are staring back into your face. they have grown so much under scrutiny and i think they did a great job! it was worth my 6 months wait for it to come out. its nice, for all potter, radcliffe, grint and watson fans out there. its like s i-must-see-it-at-least-twice-no-matter-what movie. hehe. but, the firebolt. well, see for yourself. youre hearing this from the movie addict herself. =D
was supposed to meet jing ting in the late afternoon for tuition. but guess what? i pulled her to school with me to hand in some form for othello. lol. then we went to tp where we were later joined by peng fei! thank you peng fei! he came down from yishun! lol, then we went to the library. cool, borrowed books again. thanks to peng fei, if not i wont be able to borrow! *winkz*
then me and jing ting went for tuition. okay, the place stinks. the air-con is not functioning, but look on the bright side. the tables are new! wow, so much for being optimistic. but it was okay, i mean. just lazy of me to come to tp every sunday; thats all. i'll get used to it, i think. hope i do. haha! the admin lady who works at my tuition center has a son. no, thats not wonderful. but her son is my cadet! lol, and hes going to our camp. lol!
i hope the camp turns out well. i really really do. cause if it does, it will be the best parting gift kcpnp can ever give to me. =) tml, sunday, yes, we're going down to school. to tie rope obstacles and do up the rest of the admin stuff. thanks to those external help! lol.
you're the best knight any princess can have.
something wicked this way comes.
livingherdreams;
+ 1:20 AM
Friday, June 04, 2004
shouts out loud: i give up, on my life.
i give up. i give up. i dont know what to do, other than choosing to give up. im so emotionally battered and physically drained i cant find anything else to hold on to. i give up.
i give up. i tried my best, to be there for you. i gave you more than i thought i would, but you never wanted to receive. im so tired. theres a limit to giving, and my limit is near. i try so hard to understand you, but you shrink away from me. i really dont know what i did wrong. i really dont know. i give up.
i give up. i hate doing things last minute. i dont know why i am actually doing all these. why?
my hand hurts. its got this burning sensation. i was in contact with kerosene for at least 2 hours today. wow, without a glove. i might as well drink the kerosene.
at least i had a happy dinner.
for a person who likes to talk, her silence can be deafening.
livingherdreams;
+ 10:45 PM
Wednesday, June 02, 2004
shouts out loud: black.
black is the colour which depicts anguish, depression, loneliness and eternity. thats what so cool about black. and furthermore, it reminds me of the adams family! ive learnt to dress to my mood, so im going to dress black until im feeling better again. yeap.
went out with jing ting today. for awhile. and i really mean a short while. im feeling kind of guilty now. lol. went to heereen. guess who we saw? ryan boye! he is actually working. working for who? my boss! lol. talk about conincidence! then i met zhi wei too. its been a long time, so talk alittle with him. both of them are in town selling apple. too bad couldnt catch a glimpse of that junior tan guy.
came home and sleep. before i sleep, i left a bowl of cereal beside my bed. when i woke up, guess what. there was like a swarm of ants attacking the leftover milk. gawd. i was screaming my lungs off, and my borhter had to came in and dispose of that ants-infested bowl for me. lol. what would i do without a 'man' in my house? lol!
i dreamt of you last night. i dreamt of a you i wanted you to be last night. someone who was frank with me, someone who didnt neglect me. but people dont call dreams, dreams for nothing.
anna and the king is showing! lol!
you taught me to feel, to feel the pain. the pain only you can make me feel.
livingherdreams;
+ 6:35 PM
Tuesday, June 01, 2004
shouts out loud: why dream of love, why love has died.
o'levels is over, but that doesnt necessarily mean that all your troubles goes with it too. it certainly doesnt for me. i have a cap to plan, a confidence to pick up and actions to answer for. who ever remembered having such a messed up hectic holiday. but its okay, if you have watched confessions of a teenage drama queen, you know i'll pull through. =) i think.
a maths, erm. she actually finished on time! =p
suddenly, im starting to appreciate time. its like you really get to learn to cherish alot of things when you dont have time. and in this case, i have learnt to cherish time itself. because i need it desperately. i need 48hours a day to live a full life. maybe more. lol. time can do so much, you wont want to believe yourself.
its not like i want to do everything. its not like i enjoy stressing myself. its not like im shrinking away from my responsibilities and pushing it to someone else. its not like i cant give up. i can give up. i can leave everything to be done by others. i can give up my stress. yet theres a worrying i cant chase away. and a guy who doesnt like to see me there up high. what am i supposed to do?
the fire that burns within your heart. the pain that tears your life apart. the rain that falls from broken skies. the love i lost beneath the lies. and must i face this truth alone. is the end of all ive known. the years i gave, the tears ive cried. why dream of love, when love has died?
i dont understand. what did i do wrong. it hurts to have someone close to you ignoring you. i know somethings wrong. tell me! what can you not say to me? anything but silence is something i ask. even if it hurts. please.
perhaps the weak believe that they are strong.
livingherdreams;
+ 8:49 PM
Saturday, May 29, 2004
shouts out loud: pms mode.
im officially in my pms mode. i dont know why! lol. okay, at least i was in yesterday. and i threw my temper at poor innocent people. okay, actually only one person. =x im so sorry knight! lol, really really didnt mean it. hope you dont hold it against me for that. =x girls do really tend to be unreasonable huh! *winks at kim*
went to watch the day after tomorrow yesterday. nice show, nice effects, good plot, nice big comfy theatre, wrong poeple i went to watch with! lol. =x it is a great show, the effects is cool. i mean, its amazing what you can do with computers nowadays, other than cheating poor harmless girls online. it is a must-see! but if youre kind of paranoid, dont watch it. you'll probably be worried sick if you ever see raindrops again. lol.
chinese o'levels is like on monday. can someone please remind me to bring my ic? if not i can like wait another 6 more months. gawd. got back my report book. hah! you dont want to know! its bad, really bad. as bad as i can imgaine it to be. damn it! i promise myself i will study really really hard.
so i shall start now.
i cant hold out any longer, im scared.
livingherdreams;
+ 10:28 AM
Thursday, May 27, 2004
shouts out loud: happy birthday, my knight! =)
as well as to belinda and my dear son, clarence. lol! so many people that i know so happen to be given borth on the same day. cool! =p cross country. what does that mean? major slacking! yipee! lol. thats basically what i was doing for 3/4 of the time. i didnt even perspire a single drop! lol. thats how slack i was. lol! after that went to thomson with jing ting to eat. i hate claypot rice. then by the twist of fate, ended up in orchard with valerie and company and my knight. lol.
how i wish i could be there to tell you how much i care. how i want to be by your side comforting you. how i wish to tell you no matter what the others think you'll be perfect in my eyes. how i want to be the one to be able to cheer you up. but, that will not come true. that will just be dreams. that will be nothing. because, we're no longer nothing at all.
to my knight: thank you, cause you make me feel special.
my life is changing. im changing. i feel it. this is scary. whats happening? i havent even pass my 16th birthday! (okay, this is irrelevant) i dont want to change! gawd. i like being who i am now. =x i think i sniffed too much glue from outside the newprint shop at hereen. lol! my head hurts.
somethings are just too late for regrets, like you.
livingherdreams;
+ 9:27 PM
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
shouts out loud: dunchwanna let go.
four years of my life. all four years of my life, though i must admit i was shaken at some points of time, ive given my very best to np. ive given all that i could. and now im leaving. it just cant seem to make any sense to me. how could i leave my life? how could i suddenly change what has become a habit. its impossible! what will i be doing very saturday morning now? oh gawd, someone save me. i dont wanna let go, well. but i dont have a choice. i'll miss everyone. i grew up in np, my life is there. all i know is there. why? hai, its hard to say good bye. maybe thats why lao da is still in np. =x
tuition. a maths. last session. doubt im going anymore, cause im dropping a maths. lol. shocked? you should be. caused im ungraded for amaths mid year! lol. my tuition teacher encouraged me to drop! lol.
to my knight: i cant believe you give up so easily. i cant believe you didnt ask the princess, i cant believe you didnt tell her. if its him, what more can i do? i just need you to tell me the truth. is it that difficult to do?
it ends with the pain and the making amends.
livingherdreams;
+ 10:45 PM
Monday, May 24, 2004
shouts out loud: woarhs!
i just realise that me, jing ting and kelvin are from the same kindergarten class! lol! after like 2 years then i found out! stupid! =p wah, i feel so slow! =)
mock exam today! lol, for once. i remembered to drink brands chicken essence! lol, so i managed to keep awake. lol, yes! but, i was still writing crap! nvm, hope to do better. =p my mock exam paper day one came back, not too bad. one mark better than my mid-year. =D
hai, had meeting to plan for the camp. was expecting more people to turn up, but well. this just goes to show how much some people care about their unit. hai, i cant believe im leaving np soon. 4 years pass so fast. it seems like yesterday when i was in chs for the swearing in ceremony. and to think, in 2 more months, i will have nothing to do with pa. hai! life!
boring! went to macdonalds to eat with ahh jing, and guess what? we saw a primary school guy who looks like zhu ba jie! and i dont mean the shape, i eman his face. what luck! =p
temple of the sea of wisdom, see the phoenix rise.
livingherdreams;
+ 9:06 PM
Sunday, May 23, 2004
shouts out loud: leave me alone!
why cant you just leave me alone? why cant you just pretend i dont exist? stop wishing me well! i dont want you to wish me well! dont let me know you care! do you udnerstand how much more difficult you are making it for me? just live in your own world of love, and i shall live in my own. im just asking you to pretend i dont exist. should be easy for you.
wanted to step out of house today for tution when ahh jing called. haha1 millie is sick! oh dear, so we meet to plan camp instead. which brings me back to the fact that i should be rushing a proposal instead of blogging. lol. couldnt resist the temptation. trying to find a suitable pouch for the damn camp. lol.
theres a mock exam tomorrow, which i promised to study for. well, i shall study for wednesday's! lol. i am going to convinve vanessa (ijtp) to watch confessions with me. lol. then we can both scream our heads off together. lol! yea! we both have the exact same aspirations. and i mean exact. lol. but, after the audition, i somehow wondered if im meant to do what i want to do. hai. this is stupid.
like winter nights need fire, like temples need a shrine. like lovers need desire, like prophets need a sign. i need him, cant he see? i need him, to be mine. - forbidden city.
livingherdreams;
+ 6:26 PM
Saturday, May 22, 2004
shouts out loud: theres so much i want to say!
had np, well. not exactly the nicest 'last' parade i would say. owells, should have expected it. finally, camp is finalised and we are now rushing against what controls man- time. has anyone even realised the importance of time? lol. im like so into reasoning. lol. this is dumb. i offically love germaine! she helped me gain so much confidence and went through last minute practices with me! =) erskine didnt come today. lol!
had audition, cant say much. actually, dont know what to say about it. but i definitely had fun and gained lots of expreience! lol. still, i could have done better. =p if i had actually bothered looking for a more presentable monologue. well, notice is coming in in a weeks time. we shall see.
yes! ive secured two tickets to the movie, harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban! thats how desperate i am to see rupert grint. lol. desperate. lol. wanted to watch the previews, but. well, i have to accomodate to kim for once. im not that a spoilt princess after all. =p
i need to avoid you. i should avoid you. i must avoid you. you dont understand how weak i am. affected by the mere emotions of man. love. depression. i need to get away from you. i need to pretend you dont exist. i need to, or i'll never forget you. 'we're still friends' is a mistake i never should have made. because it'll never be.
why love when love hurts? why love when love ends? i know how it feels, when it turns and pretend.why love when theres peace in the making of friends? -forbidden city.
livingherdreams;
+ 8:55 PM
Friday, May 21, 2004
shouts out loud: jibberishh!
had mock exam today. lol. someone remind me to take chicken essence the next time i have a mock exam. so that i wont fall alseep after doing half the paper, and end up writing what? jibberishh! lol. so, dont expect to do well. will study for my next exam, after my audition. which is tomorrow. which reminds me my throat hurts cause i sing too much. which reminds me my monologue is still not created and unpractised. which reminds me im probably gonna fail tomorrow anyway. damn. this stinks. and i have to leave parade early. damn it. hai.
talked to my oc about camp today. looks like its gonna be a busy week for me. everything is cramped into one single week. and thats horrible! stressed, later need to go imh howw? =x ( this is my zuo wen question) lol.
im so gald i dont have to talk to you, i dont have to hear your voice, i dont have to see that face i once yearned to see so much. im gald its over, its the end. cause i dont want to talk about it and cause me pain. for in your heart, it is not me.
i'll be what i want to be and be the next drama queen. =) but if only you were there for me.
livingherdreams;
+ 6:38 PM
Thursday, May 20, 2004
shouts out loud: my only chance, love stay by my side.
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: i want to cry!
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: one more week.
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: yea! mid year is overrrrr!
livingherdreams;
its official! im a desperate and hopeless movie addict. ive been mugging, yea, except ive been mugging on my first magazine. lol. yea, how great. if they have an exam on upcoming movies, i dont have to worry. but, well. oh mann, im so so excited with all those upcoming movies. damn it. i need hermonie's time turner! lol. see what i mean? maybe ive mugged for too long, that ive become desperate for some entertainment. lol. so heres my movie list,
livingherdreams;
in case you havent noticed, i love attention. =) livingherdreams;
that girl.*
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: thanks chongwei! =)
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: feel so dumb.
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: maybe you people out there should stop lying to me!
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: proud of you!
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: i am so tired!
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: i am at jolyn's house!
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: even heros can dream, what about me?
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: i am a curse breaker! *boomz*
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud : i tore my np skirt, again.
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud : numb!
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: some people dont change!
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: beaten and fallen.
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: how to deal?
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: i'm afraid!
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: bored!
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: i am by far the stupidest person on earth!
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: city venture was fun!
livingherdreams;
shouts out loug again: jtrl, this is for you.
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: i cant stop laughing!
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud again:some people are bitching!
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: i want to tell you how i feel!
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: i hate myself!
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: i am sick!
livingherdreams;
lol! cool. i was so busy with my homework that i had no time to blog. *guai guai*
livingherdreams;
lol. first of all. i would like to apologise for not blogging for four days. so i shall blog a really really long one today ok? *winkz*
livingherdreams;
i am as tired as a goof ball. sighz. but good news is. lotr acheived all 11 oscars it was nominated for. ah. something that made my day. lol. chinese was easy today. wrote 2 words wrongly though. thats 3 marks. shucks. lol. then biology. thanks mrs chow. she came out the only question which i refused to believe would come out and left it blank. stuipidity! arg. thats about it for the common tests.
livingherdreams;
lord of the rings took home so many awards from the oscars! woarhs! proud of you. lol! peter jackson you rawkz. orlando bloom too. =p livingherdreams;
want to start off my day badly. give me a literature test on a prose passage i can barely understand. that is it! i do not understand what the hell i was writing. and i fell alseep! thanks ahh, brain. then went on to e maths. warhs. nearly couldnt finish the paper. fortunately, i woke up to my senses in time. and was suddenly all clear and aware of what i was doing again. lol. then nothing much laa. had social studies.
livingherdreams;
boring day. woke up early to go for tuition. i had every intention to wake up at 5.30 to wake someone up. but. erm. i went on pigging. lol. went to tuition. and she informed us of a test. boring. to think i had difficulty writing. and the water in the blister ooze out. eeks. lol. disgusting. nvm. survived one and a half hour then went to eat. ate so fast cause i was really famished. lol.
livingherdreams;
woke up early early morning to go for my amaths test. yet i was still nearly late. damn. lol. one thought kept ranging in my mind. the comp is coming the comp is coming. but i doubt it affected my performance. because even if there was no competition. my brain wouldnt have been any smarter. lol. then went for physics. took my test paper. needless to say. hai.
livingherdreams;
never. never. NEVER ask me about my physics common test. i am the most careless bitch on earth. oh shit. arg. hai. i am so going to do badly for this paper. so please please please dont talk to me about it. i swear i will study and be smart from now on. lets start with a maths. greeat. nice subject ahh.
livingherdreams;
stupiid day. another woke-up-late-and-had-to-rush day. borriing. double maths was tiring. and then english was chaotic. hai. common test starts tml. so i should go study now. lol!
livingherdreams;
let me tell you a story.
livingherdreams;
lol! thats the line from forbidden city. wow! its like les miserables standard. and thats alot to be wowed about, cause its a singaporean production. haha! its so damn nice, really really nice. lol, but. i cant make copies of the dvd. =|
went to pa yesterday with the sec1s to collect their uniform. havoc knows a new name - kcpnp sec1 squad. they are by far the most chaotic and noisiest bunch of cadets ive ever knew. lol. maybe other than ourselves. lol. then we were assembled in the drill shade to give our buttons, and something stupid happened. we finally decided that guys get three big buttons, so:
-all the boys raise their hands-
me: why all of you dont have?
jingting: cause its in the plastic bag.
-she pulls out the big buttons, and we all started luaghing.
for once, ah jing is smart. lol.
today was boring, i mean. got back some more papers. dont want to put my marks up until my english papers come back, so you guys shall have to wait. lol. alsagoff is an extremely inefficient staff given her seniority. she held us back for an hour or so to arrange us in order for the mock exam. wow. so fast. then wanted to go to suntec, but spoilt. by who? duhh.
auditions in two days. scary, cause ive not done my monologue. lol. so hardworking ahh. so i shall go try to come out with one, shall blog soon again. soon i promise.
i need the faith, the love, the courage, the hope, the trust and all that is in you to be with me.
+ 5:14 PM
Sunday, May 16, 2004
lord of the rings exhibition doesnt open on monday! damn it! this sucks! arg! when im like free, it isnt open! wah! im like devastated! haha. this is dumb.
went out to meet kim today. for once, im late. its seldom im late. but i had tuition, so i have every single right to be late.
lol. =p was suppose to study, but after mid year? thats dumb. so we went shopping instead. poa, sales. so bought a shirt. lol. for the audition. ahaa. then went down to seiyu. oh no, bought even more. we both bought earrings and kim bought an additional nail polish stuff. lol. then, giordano. bought something again. im going to save from NOW on. lol. stop spending! lol.
my earholes are bleeding again. everytime i change my earring. it bleeds. how much blood is there in my ear? lol. =x okay, that was a really stupid statement, considering im a biology student. lol.
since theres no lotr, think im meeting justin tomorrow. yea, since i have not met him for a really long time.lol.
heath ledger! oh my god! haha, hes the sexiest hunk alvine next to orlando bloom. haha. hes like, cool. lol. =p
the nearer the date, the more the confidence drain out of me.
+ 10:13 PM
Saturday, May 15, 2004
oh mi goodness, ive never felt so stressful in my life. never felt the pressure of being fat! lol. but now i am. and within a short week i am going to exercise and lose as much of it as possible. this just sucks. why didnt anyone of you warn me not to eat so much. now im fat and its your fault. okay, just trying to blame everyone but myself. lol. just one more week. *winks at kim*
i need your support right now, though i know i wont have it. i just need you to encourage me and walk me through this. but it seems useless saying all these. when your heart belongs to another.
borrrriiiiing day. borrrriiiiiinnnnnngggggggg. ahh! but for once, i got to wake up late on a saturday because there is no np! muahahaha! the enjoyment. =)
god, if you cant make me any slimer. make the other people fatter. =)
+ 8:37 PM
Friday, May 14, 2004
okay, im officially crowned the g-ahead-and-leave-two-water-bottles-in-the-toilet-in-two-different-toilets-in-a-day girl. how wonderful! and both were not even 1/4 empty! damn. okay, but theres someone dumber than me! lol! who? kim! shes the threw-my-newly-bought-earrings-into-the-dustbin-girl. haha. had sooo much fun today.
feeling so guilty now. bought a what i can say ordinarylooking red colour tracks which cause me 89 bucks. well, i think it was very good of me to give up the matching t-shirt which was 79 bucks. lol. if not i would have spent 168 bucks. hehe! thanks to kim who went shopping for me.
troy troy troy! woarhs! it deserves 5 starsss! yea! wow! and you wont believe what i was doing in the theatre. i was actualyl scolding orlando bloom! lol. or rather, paris. the guy orlando bloom was playing. so dont worry, im still lovin him. lol! okay, i have to admit. brad pitt looks cute when he is fustrated! lol. and hes skirt was short, short. lol! raise the hemline! =x but the producers twisted the history quite abit. lol. watch and figure which part im talking about yourself. check our the iliad too.
had a change of manicurist today. good earth nail spa! woarhs! nice comfy placey. yea, go there too okay? lol. anyway, chemists! ive got no paper on monday! finally visting lotr exhibition with rachie! yes! =D
watch over me, hold my hand, and walk me through this time.
+ 11:31 PM
Saturday, May 08, 2004
*troy! (omg! must watch! orlando stars.)
*confessions of a teenage drama queen (lindsay lohan! and drama! wow! no ones stopping me!)
*new york minute (olsen twinnies! meaning, good show. =p)
*harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban (okay! this is IT. IT! like i'll never miss this in a million gizillion tribillion years.)
*the calcium kid (creamy boxer. yummms. yea, orlando.)
*gossip girls (lindsay again. late 2004 i think)
*kingdom of heaven (orlando yet again! late 2005)
*cinderella (hilary duff! my favourite female artist is back! yea!)
*the challenge (when they hell is it coming to singapore? starring olsen twins.)
*princess diaries 2 (supposedsingly 2004, but it aint coming out ahh.)
*harry potter and the goblet of fire (dont blame me, shootings started. late 2005 or 2006.)
*lordoftherings the return of the king extended version(wow! power up to the epic's most emotional finale.)
and also,
ned kelly! damn it! why the hell is it nc-16? yeeekkks! *whines* okay, not working. see what i mean? i pratically just listed almost all the movies. lol. i am dyiiinnnnnng to watch them! lol. *muackiez* to all those movie makers and directors. lol. keep on making movies, and i'll keep on going ga-ga over them. =p
+ 9:32 PM
+ 4:40 PM
*confessionsofateenagedramaqueen*
There was a girl I knew
Who always wanted to
Be the one to stand up from the crowd
Always believed that she
Was gonna live her dreams
That what came down was gonna come around
For all the doubters non-believers
The cynical that once were dreamers
One of these days you'll open up your eyes
And you'll realize
That girl was a onetime teenage drama queen
A hacked-up everyday wannabe
But she'll have changed her destiny
Now she's a somebody
That girl was a wild-child dreamer
But she'll find herself
Cause she believes in nothing else
Then you'll look back and you won't believe
That girl was me
Armed with an attitude
That she knows how to use
She's gonna get there anyway she can
Now she knows what she wants
No one is gonna stop her
Nothing can ever hold her back
For all the doubters non-believers
The cynical that once were dreamers
One of these days you'll know that you were wrong
Who would know
That girl was a onetime teenage drama queen
A hacked-up everyday wannabe
But she'll have changed her destiny
Now she's a somebody
That girl was a wild-child dreamer
But she'll find herself
Cause she believes in nothing else
Then you'll look back and you won't believe
That girl was me
Life is a work of art
You gotta paint it colorful
You can make it anything you want
Don't even stick to any rules
You don't need a high IQ
To succeed in what you do
You just gotta have no doubt
Just believe in yourself
Doubters non-believers
Once were dreamers
One of these days you'll open up your eyes
And you'll realize
That girl was a onetime teenage drama queen
A hacked-up everyday wannabe
But she'll have changed her destiny
Now she's a somebody
That girl was a wild-child dreamer
But she'll find herself
Cause she believes in nothing else
Then you'll look back and you won't believe
That girl was me
+ 4:37 PM
Sunday, April 25, 2004
havent been updating my blog, i know, i know. so many things are happening around me, be it within my control or not. but i did learn alot of things within these few days. lol. and i think theres quite a few people i have to thank.
kim: omma! oh gawd! i lovee you. thank you so so so much for being there for me that night. i really needed you to be there. i think thank you would be a word to under-describe what youve done for me. but, my vocab is limited. so, thank you! =)
jing ting: i shall stop treating you like rosemary. i promise you. though you may not know about what have been going on, but youre presence in my life have been a great consolation to me. no matter what you do, just dont leave my life. gam sa ham ni da!
lao da: thank you for having breakfast with me everyday. it brightens up my day. really. =)
kelvin: thanks for cheering me up these few days. thank you soooooo much! lol!
but most of all, i would like to thank chong wei! lol. thank you chong wei! it has beena great pleasure knowing you for 4 years! lol. and you know what? out of all my supposedsingly good friends, chong wei is the only soul who assured me that he has faith in me if i wanted to venture into drama! thats like so consoling! chong wei, you'll never know how much those words mean to me, but really. thank you. =D
my life is bad. but it could have been worse. so i pray and thank God. that he had planned my path for me. for He has His reasons, no matter what He does to me. and like kim said, i lost someone who doesnt love me. but he lost someone who have loved him with all she has got. i cant pretend this is nothing to me. cause it is everything.
have some faith in me, i'll soar with my wings one day. just wait and see. *dramawannabe*
+ 4:56 PM
Sunday, April 18, 2004
well, founders day. quite excited. though i had to get up real early to make it to school on time. thanks to kims father, i didnt have to wake up even earlier. reached school and we started painting our faces. kindof useless. considering it all smudged when we sweated. okay, then the parade started. me and kim were those in front. wad were we suppose to do? not screw up. what did we do? screw up. thats it. thats all i am going to reveal about our performance. then went for indoor parade. had a great time. not with the content of the programme though. *winks at kim* =p thanks to zhi hao and alvin who came to support us! =p
was supposed to go eat with jing ting and her gang. but, had to rush to make it for npcc day, so i kind of ps ah jing. =x sorry. then met kim so that her father could smuggle us into ps. lol. her father is cool. and i came up with this lame theory. 'one pass to rule tham all'. =p sounds familiar? then drove up, found a parking space. but was too earlier. so drove down. and went to grab some food. at the senior officers mass. woarhs! it looks like a palace inside okay! soooo coool! lol. then went back and waited for awhile before parade started. then guess who i spotted? zhi hao! lol. then parade went on laa. not too bad. i think they did really well. three cheers for all participating cadets and cis! =D
after parade. i did something really really stupid. and i am still feeling stupid right now. hai. this is going to follow me for the rest of my life. hai. *stares at kim* afterall, i am only a npcc mate.
went home, bathed, feel asleep, and didnt reply someone's msg. *woops* sorry. =x
you looked smart! =p
+ 11:59 AM
Thursday, April 15, 2004
i hate this world revolving around me. why do people enjoy lying to me? no one listens to me! i hate hate hate hate hate this.
i need you. right at this moment.
+ 8:47 PM
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
kim got punk'd by me! lol! this proves something, i can act after all! but to my dismay, upon checking out the websites of our local universities, i realise there is no drama courses! ahh! this cant be it. oh no, what am i suppose to do then?
okay, had founders day rehearsal today, got really fed up with my cadets. been really touchy these few days whenever i came in contact with them. perhaps because i found out that, hey, they really do lack the discpline. god, that took me ages to find out. i really needed someone to talk to, but well. no one did. so, i'll take it to my grave. wished you were there though. okay, coming back to founders day. it aint really pleasant if you had to do a performance, quite covered up, in the damn hot sun in a cursed humid weather of singapore. to think, just yesterday, i wanted to get this shirt which printed 'the weather is fine'. i bet i would have gotten whacked or something like that. lol. and well, the session ended with a short discussion. shallnt reveal too much about what it was.
to my dearest friend (the one who was the narrator while i was little red riding hood. yea, you!) : i think its time. its time to sit down and think. think of the goods, think of the bads. think of who youll end up hurting, and who youll end up loving. think of your dear friend me, and understand my perspective. think of my dear friend him, and understand how he feels. the answers are laid before you. and remember my lesson learnt. a person can still change her fated destiny, simply by making a wise decision.
it freaks me. how we tend to see things in a different way, how we tend to judge people with different colours as age sets in upon us. how long have it been since you sat down and learn to appreciate things around you.
proud of you! proud of you! proud of you! just want to let you know, youre appreciated and definitely not outcasted! =)
+ 8:59 PM
Saturday, April 10, 2004
came so early to school for founders day rehearsal and they actually started late! irritating. i was so tired okay! couldnt they have let me sleep longer? arg. nvm. the rehearsal started. and the sun started to shine in our direction too. should have brought my sun tan lotion! lol. i think the npcc-ers were great help to the sjab-ians. cause we were all black, absorbing all the heat for them! lol. then well, all went pretty fine. if you exclude the part because we couldnt hear the music and i had to shout for kim across the parade square for her to run out. lol. second rehearsal, not too bad. =)
aha! finished, was slacking around while my dear rosemary was playing with empty plastic bottles. and i msg someone, and that someone called back! =D hehe. then went to united square to slack with that bunch of npcc-ers and wanting and jessie. had lots of fun, though most of it was quite lame. =) enjoyed myself today.
went to meet jolyn to go to lido to catch the rpince and me. guess what? second day in the row sold out! ahhh! and it is not like that show is screening everywhere! someone save me! if anyone can like secure me a sit in the movie, i'll go with you! =) thats how desperate i am for that movie. then in the end, we went shopping! yesh! me and my abc darling bought the same wallet from m)phorsis. not too bad looking. lol. 9 bucks. aha! then went to mos to slack and talk about soem cca matters! lol. lets just admit it, bb boys are meant for gb girls! *winkz at abc darling!*
came home for 5 minute before going out dinner with mum. aha! kfc! nice and oily! eewwwkks. lol. my mum is cunning. she tried to squeeze out ome stuff from me! but aha! i am smart. =p todays my sister's birthday! and my dear 6 years friend did his job. good boy. =) hehe.
to my abc darling : dont think too much okay? be happy with who you are now and today! love you lots. so dont worry! you got me to fall back on! =D
today is my happiest day out of my gloomiest! thank you! =p lalala! lol
+ 9:18 PM
laalaalaa! dont know why i am here either! lol. what came out of my mouth as a casual remark became reality! thanks to my abc darling who is willing to accomodate to me! lol. *african born chinese = jolyn foo* lol! and i am brazilian, thats means. i am bbc! *the news channel* and phoebe is pakistan! lol! *oops* no racial discord ahh.
met jolyn and billy quite late so that she could fetch me to her house. was planning to catch a movie, but unfortunately, due to certain unfortunate factors, we had to skip that movie part. so we went to pizza hut and ate until all the cutsomers left but us! the atmosphere was wierd. i bet the staff hated us for taking our time to eat. then came to jolyn's house and here i am blogging.
theres a full dress rehearsal tomorrow. and as i am typing this here, jolyn is ironing her uniform! aha! np no need to wear full u! =p anyway, got to wake up real early tomorrow because thanks to dorothy tay, we are starting at 8.15! thats kind of early you know? so i better chao first! =p good night! *muackiez*
is it me? or am i just dreaming? still missing you! =)
+ 12:13 AM
Thursday, April 08, 2004
alot has been on my mind lately. and i really mean alot.
i dream to do drama! hello! how come no one seems to realise my interest lies in drama, not biology! and yea, stupid arts school starts only in 2007. thanks ahh. got really disappointed that i couldnt enter that stupid arts school. but still, i want to study drama! arg.
i realised something after like 1 year plus. it's about my literature text. erm, i just found out the male and female lead had sexual interactions! after 1 year plus. =x i feel so dumb. oh no. i think i will fail my literature! lol. but on the other hand, see how innocent i am! lol!
founders day drawing nearer and nearer and nearer. stepping down also nearer and nearer and nearer. nvm. but chinese o levels also coming! ahh! oh no! i simply hate paying $400 bucks to sit for an exam. because you'll be so worried about wasting money! lol.
rosemary is mad. she's been instigating me to go to war with people. ah jing.< click here to view. ahh! she's mad. *oops* lol. oh ya. i realised something. she's like sam! and i am frodo! muahaha! yea! but i dont have curly hair. and i dont go crazy over a gold ring. =)
nothing much happening right now. except, yea. really nothing! =p okay, shall stop here.
missing you. =)
+ 10:32 PM
Monday, April 05, 2004
line of the day! 'i will slap you till you turn purple' *william! this is for you! lol. =p*
had lots of fun today. though i not really sure if it has set into me yet. wait. i am sure it hasnt. okay, had a relatively fine day in school. english was perfectly taught in a well ventilated room called the computer lab. lol. i was typing half way, when this giant pic of kim and george pop out from my friend's com which was next to me. it sure jolted me! but, well. kim was kind of freaked out so as to why her picture was there! =p
had founders day. tiring ah. maybe because there was a lack of sleep. hmm. fine, not too bad. i reckon this rehearsal was better than the previous one. *hey! it is suppose to be like that! =x* then, did alot of stupid stuff laa. i mean, seriously, when you are with rosemary, it is hard not to. she just instigates you to. lol. came home to chiong cme project. which up till this moment, i am not done with yet. hai.
oh ya, scold me. i have been playing harry potter! lol! sounds childish ehh! wait till you get your hands on it. you'll be competing with me in no time. still waiting for the sims, which rosemary has kindly forgotten to bring. ahh!
cheer up! cheer up! cheer up! cheer up! cheer up! =) hehe, hope this helps you to feel less, well erm. ya less not so cheerful. =]
+ 10:22 PM
Friday, April 02, 2004
dont laugh! i tore my skirt. oh man, out of 4 years, i tore both of my skirts. new and old. this is so embarrassing. and to think i have npcc service day tml! greeaat. thanks! but hey, i get to wear pt kit. =x hmm, heard i will be covering my own block tml about crime prevention. imagine talking to my father about crime prevention! lol! thats hilarious. theres really alot of good movies coming up! so excited! whee! like erm, hidalgo *already showing*, taking lives *also already showing*, the prince and me *another fantasy story*, troy *huge huge star factor - orlando and brad*, harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban *watch out for emma watson* and spongebob squarepants! yea! =D save bikini bottom! =p
hey! i skipped sports day. lol! supposed to meet zhi hao to grab kim's present. but the rain was torrenting outside the windows of my house. so i msged him to tell him i couldnt get out. told him i'll msg him again. and when i did, he just got onto the train. talk about fateless. there is no better example than this. =p
been drinking alot of milk lately, people said its good for the brains. but it aint working! my common test results came back today! oh boy, you dont wanna know. doubt i could even enter my desired course. *damn* its time to wake up! *slap slap* lol, chao. anyway, congrats kim. =p
youre it! youre the ultimate! its automatic im sure of it. no lie! so dont even try to tell me that youre not the guy. cause ive been waiting all my life, for someone just like you. youre it. youre the ultimate, you. - lindsay lohan, ultimate.
+ 8:26 PM
Monday, March 29, 2004
we are back to the old hot and non air-con class. *damn* lol. so sickening. so stuffy. and that stupid beiling material absorbs all the sound waves of the poor teachers who apparently are already shouting. lol. then mr lawrence tan came ina nd spent nearly one period explaining to us why we felt so uncomfortable and hot! cute guy! and kim said he looked like han bin when he smile. oh man. poor han bin. i ffel so insulted for him. =p *bin ahh* =x then after that stayed back for remedial! lol. hey, guess what. i did my homework ehh! yesh! i rawkz. =p no laa, felt so guai today.
talked to that guy, ya, that guy. he made sense. i mean anyone whom you respect would make sense. and its not like i was totally correct to begin with. hai, shall think about this another day. i really dont want to end up killing myself because of this. oh yes, btw, i failed my ssgt test. congrat me ok? i am too numb to be even bothered with your sniggers. wadever.
i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. if i dont, you'll hurt me. deeper and deeper by the day.
+ 10:06 PM
Sunday, March 28, 2004
to you:
all good things come to an end. even though we may have fought many obstacles to stand where we are today. things still have to end. because only when it ends, then do people savour in its good memories. it was inevitable. you had to lose one of us. and though you had no choice, it was me. i hadnt give up on you. if i did, i wont be bothered whether you were having fun with others or not. but you can only choose one. and thats life. because you can never mix fire with water, salt with sugar. you tried. she didnt. i want to give in. but her attitude resoluted my decision. its not how we end up, its how we came together. partings are just but part and parcel of life. so, dont think too much. because it is impossible for the world to return to normal. because so much bad had happened. just impossible.
han bin called me today! *oops* ak better not be seeing this. talked about quite some stuff. and i realised. that some people are always there for you even if you dont see them. they are always there for you to fall back on when the world around you go crazy and you feel like youre losing yourself. thats nice. so we talked and i made up my mind. for him, for myself as well to prove my worth of being where i am today. no one, even norman, is allowed to ever look down on me again. okay, back to tuition. change of relief teacher. was a female, quite happy. *sexist* then turn out she was even more boring than that skinny guy that thought us last week! oh my, millie! oei! come back! lol. then, ya lar. nothing much le. lol. my life is just so boring. unlike my brother, whose life is full of shouting with the teachers. =p
without him. the world around me changes, the trees are barren everywhere the streets are full of strangers. but. without me. his world will go on turning. a world thats full of happiness, that i have never known. -les miserables, on my own.
+ 12:43 PM
Saturday, March 27, 2004
so many things have happened. yet, i can find no words to explain. even if i do, no one understands. no one will. because they dont make an effort to. esp you, norman. you never asked.
someone please save me. i am losing my mind to the very fragility of mankind. so easily seduced, so quick to fall.
+ 10:38 PM
Tuesday, March 23, 2004
there is alot of things going through my mind at this instance. like NOW. yes, i am going crazy. never once had i felt much more depressed than this. if there is anything i can do about it, tell me. i will do it to make my life easier.
somethings wrong. really wrong. i dont feel comfortable with you anymore. 4 years and now, i dont feel comfortable anymore. a short period of a week has changed my perceptions on our friendship. you can say i dont make an effort. but how was i suppose to? you people seem to be enjoying yourself, even without me. so why should i make myself present? and mix company that doesnt need me? and if you are reading this. dont approach me. it wont help.
i need help. i cant concentrate. neither am i doing well in anything. nothing at all! my studies are dropping by the day and my homework is piling higher and higher by the mintue. if someone doesnt stop this, i might be quitting school just as you say 'gone'. worse still, theres a damn ssgt test i decided to take, which i am completely ignorant about. yes, i admit it. i am stupid. the most stupid and idiotic girl living on the sirface of earth. i studied, and i did badly. i studied, yet i fail. i studied, yet nothing goes and stay in my brain. maybe i should do a brain transplant.
theres so much going through my mind now, i feel like sleeping. and never wake up to face all these. who ever said that taking o levels was this stressful? no one told me this! no one breathed a word about it being so unmanageable for a stupid person like me. i always reprimand jing ting for being dumb, maybe i am dumber. wait, i am. without a doubt.
i need you. i need you. i need you. i need you. i need you. i need you.
+ 9:47 PM
Monday, March 22, 2004
lol! first day of school, and i am already busy. copying homework that is. did not touch a single one. and i have plenty to do today. in fact, i should be mugging for my physics test now instead of blogging here! lol. =x forgot to bring my jacket today, totally regret it. damn. it was freezing. wasnt in a very good mood today. but lao da cheered me up! lol. had breakfast with him! thank you! =p well, timetable has changed and i dont like it! a maths and physics before recess? wads is left of recess? damn. pe is on thursday now. and well. fine with that. nothing interesting later. except that the sports day people had their heats today. and i made up an idea for dryburgh to win. and it was really mean. hey, come on. i aint in a good mood. nono. *sigh* talked abit to kenneth today. hey! he's grown up. =p nice talking to him. marican wasnt here today, so left early. *guilty* nothing much.
made a really important decision on my part. okay, i have decided to take my ssgt test. i mean. it may seem nothing. but having to build up your confidence, and all your hopes, polishing your boots, ironing your uniform and mugging over the theory of drill and topography and then later all these gets crushed because you end up failing. i think i have enough to deal with in my life other than failing my promotion test. but still, like my sister said. "take or dont talk also fail, just try your luck laa!" lol. so, yes! i shall take it.
should have just shut up.
+ 6:26 PM
Sunday, March 21, 2004
greeat. theres this new e maths tuition teacher that cannot teach. hw went through a simple test paper with only 7 questions for 1 and a 1/2 hours! so interesting. i was falling asleep. stupiid. lol. i dont know how to survive. millie! i need you back here, like immediately now! hai. then went to catch scooby-doo 2 with kim. hoping that it could cheer me up a little. it actually did, for some time that is. after that. it was still bleak. scooby-doo 2 was okay. not too bad. but just not as good as the first one. and guess what. *spoiler alert* reuben, ya, that ami2 winner actually appears in the last part of the film. lame! and it wasnt really very significant. just lame. real lame. lol. but its a if-you-have-the-time-and-have-nothing-to-do-then-catch-it movie. if not, i think your time can be put to better productivity. lol.
but to you, its was never about me.
+ 11:01 PM
Saturday, March 20, 2004
i am scared. if i made my decision. would you stand by it no matter what happens. or raise both hands and object? it doesnt matter what others say, what i want is just your answer. =(
i am the stupidest bitch on earth. by far the most stupid moronic and idiotic person i have ever known. and you proved me right? i think you know who you are! and if you do, thanks. i need help! hello?! =x maybe i have been reading too deep into you words. too deep, i'm falling in myself. thought i could laugh through this whole matter, i was wrong. and i know this has to end.
what happened to my coloured marshmallow world? you painted it for me, and then took it all away the same.
+ 11:50 PM
Friday, March 19, 2004
first of all, you are welcome jtrl. and well, finally. a real blog entry.
i think 'fun' is a word under-describing the whole event. lol. the chsnp dudes really put in alot of effort. could sense it. lol! i would like to thank dillon and jun yi. our beloved game masters who without a single complaint ran with us through out the whole game. especially dillon who had to run with us with an old injury. *oops* it was really fun, and i didnt regret going. though i was contemplating on going or not in the first place. had lots of fun. and did some bonding with my dear whitley np mates on some stuff. =p *winkz* but, thanks to the not eating for 6 hours thing. i ended up with acute gastric and had to take a cab form bishan to bishan! =| lol. came home bathed and sleep. was so shagged. would really like to thank cat high for such a wonderful event! =)
woke up this morning with muscle aches. must be the running's fault. now even when i sneeze, my stomach muscle hurts! lol. must go do something about this. like, sleep! =p
to you: never did blame you. really, happy enough to be able to take part. and thanks for making sure everything went right. =D
as you can see, i changed m blog skin! yes! its been a long time since my previous dull black one. lol. hope you like it. bye!
wondering whats going through your mind. cause its all about you! =p
+ 1:33 PM
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
honestly speaking, i dont even know who you are and vice versa. so, well. but what i am saying is that i really admire the way you reacted to the whole thing. it much more rational. and thats what i am saying. its not sarcastic. i am serious. well. i mean it! lol. i am sorry if you mis read my previous entry. well. so as to your complaint about daniel. since i just said i admire you. i cant say that you dont have a logical reasoning. *sorry, but i cant say this for your sis.* and like kim suggested. maybe you two should just ignore one another. =| thats all.
+ 11:44 PM
well. jtrl and jtlz, lets admit it. stop the crap about 'not happy dont read my blog' thing. because as it seems, we have been reading each anothers blog.
to jtrl (since she wont be reading my blog, well jtlz, convey the msg) : i am really surprised at your reaction. in a good way. really. i take my hat off to you. lol! i officially admire you. you're 14 rite? cool. okay, i am not saying that daniel is the greatest thing that happened to wss. but well, he did help you people rite? and i suppose with that, it is enough for a small little thank you? weel. i may not be there and everything, but i do know what was going on. and i really hope you'll be understanding enough to understand what i am trying to put across. =D
to jtlz: you're a disgrace compared to your sister. oh god. i have never seen anyone with a more limited vocabulary than you. is 'fark' the only word you have ever learnt? if so, i really pity you. i wont try toking sense to you. since you are senseless.
and to the whole wss np unit. *if you guys ever read it in the first place* it was never my mere intention to insult wss. just that i really aint happy with the above mentioned. and all i can say is, be glad your unit had a trainer.
+ 4:01 PM
apparently, some people have been insulting someone dear to me. well, they were more of bitching actually. yea. well, since they have started this, i shall then have very single right to bitch back too! yea. =D *my favourite past time* you two girls, i cannot believe it. after living like 14 years of your totally wasted and pathetic life, did you not at least learn some manners to understand that if you are helped, you ought to thank the helper! dont be stupid. if it wasnt for his help, would your school have won any thing in the first place? now dont go on bragging about what you did for your unit. i feel ashamed. because you made it seem so amazing that you actually helped. so you slacked on all the other days huh? thats my only deduction. come on, you aint any where near greeat. its simply disgusting to realised what kind of npcc cadets there are on earth, actually, its only you two. if i werent late in asking, i would really like to see where your stupidity would have lead you to. perhaps the last page of the results? be glad that you have a dedicated trainer. if not, you and your unit would be worth nothing. NOTHING at all. you get it? ahh. dont even know why i am wasting my blog space for you two idiots. i am over and done with this. but phur-lease. stop behaving like immature fools and insulting someone who has done so much for you people.
haha. and since jtrl mentioned that she can say anything her my blog, i hope she wont get offended that i kinda intentionally openly used her chatterbox to express my feelings. must not waste her efforts that she put in to set it up wad. rite? =D
+ 12:03 AM
Tuesday, March 16, 2004
thank you, for saying all those things. although we lost completely, i am glad to know that you know we appreciate you alot. lets not ponder on the decisions we made in the past. but look forward to what we will have in common in future! lol. and, stop stressing yourself! okay? =p and phur-lease. sleep early. lol. =D
lao da! you rawkz! you are the best officer any one in npcc can ever get! love you lots. the new fancy rifle drill is cool. hehe. you're the best! and kcpnp do rock! =p
why am i hesitating to tell you how i feel, now that you're beside me? the pain so tormenting, but do you know?
+ 6:53 PM
Monday, March 15, 2004
even if i meant nothing to you, that doesnt mean my world has to stop revolving. what if the girl you were looking for, willing to give you everything, was standing right beside you?
the pen is mightier than the sword. and my heart unsurpassed.
+ 11:52 PM
Sunday, March 14, 2004
i did something stupiid. and i am so guilty. i setted a 11 for my l1r5. 11! thats nonsense! aiyo. =(
ok. i am really sick. and i am running a temperature. this is not good. its has been a long long time since i fell so sick. lol. but better le. i think. at least i stopped tearing. lol.
np was not too bad. but i was really sick and couldnt really pay attention to what my oc was saying. *not like i wanted to in the first place* so my dear ho desmond, was sweet enough to steal a cup for me and made me cereal. lol. three cheers for desmond. =p really really sweet. the cereal was magic. i instantly felt better. but i had a problem once i stood under the sun, i would faint any momnet. i promise. so i slacked around. then saw the bb boys moving here and there. lol. they were having a camp in school. looks fun. =x
went to meet zhi hao with desmond after np. he was going to celebrate whitley's results for the cc com. and then i suddenly realised. i havent congratulate them yet. so, congrats wss cc com team! =p then went to bishan mac to eat. it was really fun on the way. me and kim freaaked norman out. all the way. lol. *winkz* finished my meal and then couldnt take it anymore. so walked home. and ian walked me home. thanks alot, dude! lol.
went home to take medicine and sleep. woke up feeling much better. then received a msg from zhi hao asking me to dine out. so ok i agreed. so i met up with desmond and eng larp first. and guess who was late? lol. it was ok if he was late. but he informed us he wasnt eating! lol. thats going to be an unforgettable memory for him. lol. j8 was too crowded, so we went to s11.
trust me, we sat down from about 8 to 11.30 just talking. talking and talking. then jie larp came. lol. things started to be a little lame. so we decided it was time to go home! yesh! then went home lor. lol. and i was tearing again when i came home. so went to eat medicine again and sleep. woke up this morning. worse. nothing seemed better, and i had cramps! thanks ahh. lol. i am going to sleep now. thanks for listening to me nag! =p
what if i told you? would you turn away in disbelief or would you embrace me with all that you have got?
+ 12:20 PM
Thursday, March 11, 2004
ok, big news. the false ceiling in one of my school classes fell down. lol. yesh! fell down like that. it just came crashing down like no one's business.but no worries, no one died. only injured. but it was quite funny laa. someone said that the paramedics had to use that electric gel on that boy who was hit by the false piece of ceiling. but the fact is he walked to the ambulance! stupiid ahh! then the scdf and firemen all came in. big big issue man. lol. but ok le. so now all the affected classes are shifted to a new place. and i get to study in the mpr! =) *air-con*
actually, other than that. got nothing else interesting about these two days le. lol. but tml is the last day of the first term and also it is zhi hao's birthday! go wish him. go! go! =p oh yah! and *i*c**t! you pissed me off. you realy did. and i really dun wanna care! but where the hell did i piss you off that you had to make some stupiid childish remarks? arg.
there is always space on the top. but even more at the bottom. never wait for your ship. swin out to meet it.
+ 6:34 PM
Saturday, March 06, 2004
how shall i start? must say it had been an eventful day. and i spent the last 2 days preparing for it. lol. for the starters, let say that today is the first entreprise day tyem has ever organised in collabration with rjc. as usual, me and yc went to help out. it was chaotic. everything was so chaotic at the registration table! the tags for the teachers were all entangled together. and we had a hard time entangling them, let alone find the respective name. were crawling on the floor, so pathetic. haha!
then after that not too bad. settled down. then went to settle the food. the students came down. ate the food. so happy. cause seems to have alot of extra. then, suddenly, another group of students came down and say that they were the second group. so all the coaches were like stunned. cause there were only cakes left. *to think i ate vegeterian bee hoon* so we started to ration the cakes. not too bad. just nice. so we decided to increase order with caterer. but he say cannot. because all the food is already packed. so how? dieee! but nvm. we got people like andrew who is kind enough to drive out and buy big mac! yea! *which i didnt eat until after the whole thing*
then after that went to the concert hall. *let me say this. i have no idea, why the hell they need a concert hall, drama theatre and an auditorium. <- acs barker* helped out in setting up the stage and well just doing all the odd jobs. including placement of the trophies. which, to me. had a resemblance to the oscars. lol. but he's carrying a briefcase. so all the speakers and performancers came to do rehearsal laa. and walla! those break dancers guys. cartoon! they were fooling around at backstage, doing really lame stuff. hehe.
then the fun really began. they actually mixed wayang with break dancing. *dun ask me to tell you how. please, dont.* and well. quite interesting. then hossan leong came. *for all those who dont know, hes that stage actor. oh my god. hes talented. hes now my new goal. =)* and he sang so beautifully. and then elim came and showed her video, which touched me again. though it was the 4th time i was seeing it. lol. then jun wei came. ya. jun wei, that ufm 100.3 guy. lol. hes elim's good friend and mc of the day. hes billingual! and a very good one at that. *clapz clapz* and turns out he and hossan are acs guys. haha. jun wei got the look, but hossan? *oopsz*
and the talk started, with all the students streaming in. hossan started off really well, making everyone laugh till their stomach ached. and hes really a good speaker. then elim. *clapz clapz* <- biasness *if not dont get pay* lol. she, well. what can i say? i heard that speech for like 4 times? hehe. then it was me and yc's turns to go up and give up the awards together with mr loo. the erm. raffles medical guy. and shit. we mixed up everything! yesh! everything. gosh. nvm. was forgiven by stella. lol.
thought it was going to be boring. cause this apple guy, junior was going to talk. but hey. not too bad. hes a good and captivating speaker. or maybe it was the apple gadgets that everyone was looking at. lol. then that dr andrew goh guy. looks are deceiving. he looks boring. but wow. he gives talks for a living. and he is good at it. lol. enjoyed it. today was also the launch of ace.
then went down to ps to cut hair with yc. not too bad. she looks good. after which we went t poa to shop. and i bought a pink shoe. act cute! yea. lol. then came home lor. and blog. yesh! i am finally done. are you happy?
leadership is an action, not a position. it is not what happens when you are there, it is what happens when you are not.
+ 9:48 PM
Tuesday, March 02, 2004
two various pe teachers in training relieved our classes today. and the girls beside me starting take photos. *faint* lol. they were discussing something i thought sound unmistakenly like "butts". haha. then cme. interesting. marriage and parenthood. lol. talked quite abit. and sorry guys. but my cme deem you guys irresponsible and egoistic. which i would not disagree. hee. theres a minority that are perfectly gentlemanly though. =p physics. lawrence tan as usual stretched. but nvm. i am ok with it. then came home.
checked out the lotr webby! so many new stuff. lol. kool. you peeps should check it out too. their webby won some prize too. cant remember what. hehe. love lotr. =)
never look down on anyone. for they'll spread their wings and soar the sky. never look down on yourself. for if you do. you'll never climb higher.
+ 5:34 PM
Monday, March 01, 2004
+ 6:31 PM
chapel. horrible. how can they use chapel to scold us? and not to mention the public caning. arg. they even eat into two periods. nonsense. poor mr tan. bet he was very sad that we couldnt attend his physics lessons. which i really wanted to attend. damn it. then had biology. motherly mrs chow went over the four topics that are being tested tomorrow. so kind of her. lol. then i chiong to popular to get some ten year series for biology again. ( i think its my 6th one already). then jing ting came over and she studied. and i am still stuck on microorganisms. i hate this chapter! ahh! never mind. for my future. i shall work hard. heh.
learn to trust. for it is the fundamentals for building strong relationships. learn to take things in stride. for every failure brings about greater understanding.
+ 5:30 PM
Sunday, February 29, 2004
went to get this humangous compass for my common test tml. lol. it can stretch at least 20cm ahh. sure no need to worry de. hehe. came home and slept again. so tired. slept and slept and slept. lol. what a boring life i have. have to go revise literature and e maths later. i worry for myself. dont even know whether i can lift a pen and write that long essay or not. =p so yea. shall blog another time.
i want my social studies structured essay question! =P YOU! give it to me. lol!
live everyday like your last. because you will never know what happens the very next day. treasure everyone. cause they play a part you'll never realise till they are gone.
+ 5:11 PM
Saturday, February 28, 2004
competition. greaat. met zhi hao at the drill shed. and jing ting was doing some last minute first aid for me. the bruise on my leg aint healing! until now! *sighz* nvm. we did our usual 100-plus cheer and then the annoucement came. "can the captain or vice-captain of kuo chuan presbyterian secondary school report to the registration table now." and all of us were like. oh no. the stress was setting in. jing ting and i were prhaps the ones under the most intense stress. because evryone was like. "be gentle. the twine very easy to snap." and me and jing ting? which part of us looked gentle? lol. then kim, jing ting and myself went around to get sirs to write good luck on our hands. lol. thanks jonathan, eugene, danny, zhi hao, mr chua and ms ros. (ok, shes not a sir) kim believed it was a lucky charm. lol.
as we jogged into the competition ground. i was making this stupid beep sound saying that i am the stress meter. lol. then i went burst! this time round. i was the one doing the one minute check. hmm. trust me. i checked the set of sheets over and over again. then the horn sounded. it was too sudden. it took me 1.5 sec to realise the start. and as it went on. the twine really proved its fragility. stupiid ahh. we used all 3 penalty twines. lol. and joined the rest of the snapped twines. lol. at least we finished everything. and sang the school song while unpitching. yesh! =D proud of our team. and to those who were standing there. watching us. giving us encouragment. tahnks alot alot alot! really. you people were a great source of support! =p
went to eat mac after that. jing ting, kim, rong zhen and me werent exactly the most sane combination. we started doing lots of strange stuff. lol. jing ting got cornered by kim in the toilet! lol. then we all started to tell lame jokes to lao da and zhi hao. the lame meter was threatening to explode. hehe. then went walk around in j8. den came home and sleep! yesh! sleep. the only thing i want to do now after blogging is to sleep! =)
why is it when the best guy on earth is standing right before you, you do not cherish him? or is it, because you were afraid to lose him and acted like that?
+ 8:54 PM
Thursday, February 26, 2004
went to eat mac with michelle, jing ting, nicholas and clavin chua J shaun today. ( i loovve his lonnng name. lol) and then as usual. jing ting gets bullied. but nicholas was really sweet. he helped me and michelle carry our books. which was really quite a big amount. lol! thanks alot nicholas. and i just remembered that he was in my pri.1 - 4 class. oops. then took a bus home with them laa. and i got home. and i am supposed to be studying. but. erm. the temptation of the com was too biiig. lol. so. yeap. have a nice dinner. and yes! campcraft com is in 2 days. please let it RAIN! og god. please. RAIN! =]
to my dear rosemary:
it really aint your fault. really. i am over it. so dont be too guilty. and stop blaming yourself. why so dummb. keep blaming yourself? lol. =p
+ 7:03 PM
Wednesday, February 25, 2004
i really have nothing to say. i dont know what to do. its not your fault. i know.
+ 6:59 PM
long ago. lived an enthusiatic npcc cadet, gnoel. he loved campcraft alot and signed up for the competition. but his squad mates didnt like him and they intentionally dropped a flag pole on his head. he never grew a single inch since then. he hated np.
and he grew up to be a teacher. joined band and took them in lead. but they realised he has no absolutely music talents and kicked him out. and when he joined table tennis, it closed down. thats why. he doesnt allow us to keep our campcraft materials in his room! bleahz! =p
+ 6:56 PM