Saturday, October 25, 2003

thoughts are lies we tell to comfort our broken will.
i thought it was a dream come true when i met you.
but all along i was just dreaming.
i thought my patience would touch that heart i yearned.
but i guess i didnt wait enough.
i thought we could still be friends even if we didnt work out.
but what are we now?
i thought i was someone special you could spill your heart out to.
but it seems that you are telling everyone.
i thought it would be a happy ending just like in any fairytale.
but have you ever heard of one just like ours with a sad ending.
i thought how sweet it was of you to remember i drink with two straws.
but i never happened again.
i thought you didnt like the childish and immature me and i changed.
but you never bother about me all the same.
i thought i could still be happy without you in my life.
but i cannot help but be sad when i think of you knowing our fate has ended.
i thought i am the strongest girl around and could forget you.
but i miss you. still missing you.
you noticed me because i could lead. because i could help bring the unit somewhere higher. you noticed not because i stayed by your side all the while. but because i did things from my heart unknowingly. things i thought werent important. i rather give up my potential. my ability. give them up to turn back time and pray you wouldnt know me. pray that you are just a figure to me. but whats the point when things have come to such a point.
he whacked me. does that me that our friendship is back on track? or does he mean he doesnt care to hurt me anymore?

livingherdreams;
+ 6:02 PM

Friday, October 24, 2003

happy deepavali! =) such a lazy morning. crawled out of bed at 12 plus. so lazy. lol. shall go eat my lunch. =p

livingherdreams;
+ 1:17 PM

sorry that for the past few days. my blog was in a total mess. but now. thanks to sean. it is animore. why? cause he hosted all the pics on my blog for me. *clap clap* lol. so here is my new template. shall continue to blog tml. i think i spent too much time doing the template. it's late! nitey.

livingherdreams;
+ 12:48 AM

Tuesday, October 21, 2003

can i exchange my tears for just a moment of ur time?

livingherdreams;
+ 9:19 PM

pissed

this is so stupidd! now i noe why you can tolerate her for the past few months. because u are as equally senseless and childish and ur brain grows in ur butt. ur school deserves a better student. please dont bring their standard down. you are the most farked up person i have probably ever met. cant you use ur butt to think even for a moment. what you are doing just makes things worst for me and him. and i repeat! i have nothing to do with him! arggg!

livingherdreams;
+ 8:05 PM

Monday, October 20, 2003

u

the sun is never warm without u. it never shines for me if there is no u.
rain is just rain when u are not in my life. but rain holds a special memory i have with u.
i miss missing u. but how long can i miss if u dun feel the same.
the key to my heart is with u. but i guessed u have misplaced it long ago.
u dun have to do anithing. but you can make me laugh or cry. smile or tear.
u are the only one running through my mind. and if u are not tired. i am.
i thought i have forgotten how we met. the memories we shared. i thought all these could be erased from the slightest trace of my memory. but it proved me otherwise.
i can never forget. never. the way u smile. the way u paid attention and was serious.
i dun have a choice. it is u.

livingherdreams;
+ 12:04 AM

Saturday, October 18, 2003

end of exams

lol! its the end! finally! the end has come. haha. and it marks a new beginning. a new beginning to partyyyyy! =x woops. went to kimage to cut hair yesterday at ps after the stupid mcq paper. well. it became very short. i wanted a major change. and i got one. see it for yourself dudez. =p den went home to bathe and dress up to meet yc and rach. went to e base. bought some stuff. den went to watch the rundown. woarhs. and yc parents watched with us! haha. thought not beside. but waeeee in the front. lol. den went to buy hp! you noe..~~ the one that you can write chinese de. 6108. hmm. mum bought it for me after my old phone went for swimming lessons and nearly drowned. love my mum.apparently. its lungs were already faulty. den went to far east to take neo prints and came home. crazzieeee day. lol. =]

livingherdreams;
+ 7:31 PM

Wednesday, October 15, 2003

i love the sunset.

livingherdreams;
+ 5:16 PM

one loves the sunset. when you are very sad.

livingherdreams;
+ 5:11 PM

swimming
read. but dun laugh. DUN! my hp dropped into the toilet bowl. the water was clean. CLEAN! went for a little swim my stupid fone. and drowned. doubt it will be revived. so bye my fone. and helloooo new fone. lol. guess that's wad good when ur fone drowns. a new one comes along! =p

livingherdreams;
+ 4:58 PM

Tuesday, October 14, 2003

joke of the exam period
kim: you noe that ecology pyramid thingy?
yw: ya lor. answer is biomass mahz.
kim: i wrote pyramid of deaths!
-yw, rach and jolyn laughed their guts out-

livingherdreams;
+ 4:33 PM

her story. [for my dearest yc, yw's version.]
she was rich. pretty. introvert. and seldom lose her temper.that was how she was like to me when i first got to noe her.yes. she's still rich. she's still pretty. and she still seldom loses her temper.but now. she's so much more open to us. she learnt how to talk about stuff.she told me one day morning. much to my surprise and anticipation. about her important decision. i was shocked. really. though i saw it coming. i consoled her and told her it was ok. i guessed she finally broke free.
a year later. we have become even closer. she didnt changed. though perhaps. i have. another girl has. the people around here had. but she didnt. she was still whom i knew. that girl who finally opened up to her friends. today. is the day she made the decision one year ago. i dun care who enterred her life and left. because you noe wad. girl if you are reading. i have entered and i dun plan to leave. NEVER! =]

livingherdreams;
+ 4:07 PM

bio. hmm. stupid. stupidity. i mixed up ovulation and fertile period. god. oops. =x.
but it was an okay paper. in fact. if you studied. you can pass quite well. =D looks like i didnt study huh. =p this is my last major exam man. haha. cme. lit. a maths. geo p1. weeee! i dun care! oh. there's a maths p2. shittttt.~ so it aint the end of my hell.

livingherdreams;
+ 3:59 PM

Sunday, October 12, 2003

someone save me. i am watching LIZZIE MCGUIRE in my living room rotting away.
not the movie. the KID SHOW. oh god. i am becoming a kid. KIIDD.

livingherdreams;
+ 12:33 PM

oh god. i just read rachel's blog. i dun care if the matrix and brother bear is nc-16 not.
but if lord of the rings is nc-16. i will so freak out. and i mean FREAK OUT! and i will swear outside the head quaters of sg censorship board for 3 days and 3 nites. lol.
but it is pretty unlikely to happen. =) it is such a peaceful show. ok. other than the war part which probably takes up 3/4 of the show. =p

livingherdreams;
+ 12:28 PM

infernal affairs.*
went to check out this well looked upon show. and i totally found it greek.
until i came home. and realise part2 was the younger period of the first movie.
how dumb can i get. i didn't watch the first movie and i went to watch the 2nd one.
but after realising the fact that it was the earlier period. everything made sense.
and guess wad. edison and shawn were really great! =x okay. so edison is the sort of baddiez. that is bad.
will definately catch the third part. though it is a chim movie. i think it's worth it.

dad's bdae.*
bought nothing. not intending to say anything.
and definately worrying how to survive a whole single day with him tml.
shitt. shitt. shitt. can i act sick? oops. =x
dun expose me yea? dun even think about it. ZAP! the thought is gone. =)

livingherdreams;
+ 12:02 AM

Saturday, October 11, 2003

27th may 1686, thursday

i slept by the fire place reading books again. awed at the oldest communication known to mankind.
my mother always said i read because i couldn't think for myself. but i respectfully beg to differ.
doesn't the world the words create revolve around you. dun deny me my right to wish. to dream.
my soul hungers to see the world. my mind tells me to travel far beyond. but my legs dampens my spirit.
perhaps my mother is right. no dainty princess would go about the world on her own. not in the 16th century.
so i am suppose to sit and wait for the day till the letter of betrothal arrives from some country's prince.
and waste my youth and my time to rotting away and having tea parties in the garden with my mother.
i want freedom.
i want to seek that one true love everyone claimed uncomprehendable.

livingherdreams;
+ 11:54 PM

Saturday, October 04, 2003

am i suppose to miss you in the midst of my sadness.
cause i cant find you aniwhere in my heart. not in my head.
am i really in love with someone i thought i have long forgotten.
cause this aint love if i dun find you running through my mind.
am i trying too hard to get your attention to tell you.
cause i now find your attention worth too little.
am i suppose to feel jealous when you talk to me bout her.
cause i no longer get all worked up when i hear her name ring.
does this mean. i have forgotten you? when what i feel is the exact opposite.

livingherdreams;
+ 11:23 PM

Which Pirates of the Caribbean character are you?

muahahaha. orlando bloom. *droolz* hey! i didnt cheat just to post his pic on my blog k? so get that dirty stupid thinking off ur mind right now! NOW!

livingherdreams;
+ 4:11 PM

haven been blogging since nut years.
i have to study ok? so dun blame me. you'll understand when you grow up.
so i do have a talent after all huh?
my mum said to me when we were eating lunch today.
"i think you should start looking around for a school which is teaching fine arts instead of going aroung learning hip hop."
i stared at her with my mouth open big enough you could actually see my tonsils. [ok. this is crapping to spice up my abondoned blog for a while.]
"what ever for? i can't do arts. i aint doing it now."
"nono. i am going to pay for your lessons. extra."
oh. so after all she found out. she found some good in me after all. interesting. cause i thought all alone i had only one talent. and that was to bitch. =p
shall go catch up with my studies now. i am lagging by half an hour already. oopiez.

livingherdreams;
+ 3:40 PM

bornasimplejane; tryingtostandout_