Tuesday, December 30, 2003
woke up early this morning to meet kim for breakfast at ya kun. den went down to kimage at ps with the intention of trimming my frigne in preparation for the reopening of school in 2 DAYS! but! i ended changing my hairstyle AGAIN. lol. i can spike it if i wanna.
then went down to school fro fanct rifle. not too bad. lol. they are making great great improvements. but i think there is still room for improvemnts for all of us. this is definately not our limit. *hehe*
went to thomson later to eat and then went to check out at the optician to check whether i can wear contacts. in the end. the guy say my pupil too small. so cannot wear soft lens. so i started looking for a new pair of specs since my degree changed le. found one. buying it tml. lol.
i think thats all lar. i got nothing to write le. really. lol. i am so tired. so exhausted. so shagged. lol.
livingherdreams;
+ 10:46 PM
Monday, December 29, 2003
reading my logs. listening to the song that sound as if it was written for us.
i just realised. why. why it was her. i realised why. even if it was not her. it'll never be me. looks like this is a truth i have to learn to accept. your replies. never exceed what i said. your replies never bore the same interest, the same love and the same care and concern mine did. reading what i used to say, i really felt childish, immature and absolutely stupid. but i've changed. i think. but i aint given a chance to prove myself. ever since that day i learnt about you and her. i have wished almost everyday that it wouldnt last. though i know it aint a very nice thing to do. but wad more could i do? if i wipe my tears dry and say i wish both of you the best. that would be hypocritical. isnt it? but now. i think. i can do that. not because i have forgotten you. just because i came to realise one fact. that you'll never treat me the way i treat you. and i'm tired.
livingherdreams;
+ 1:29 AM
adorable-est creature known to mankind! spongebob squarepants! *lol*
livingherdreams;
+ 12:40 AM
boring. boring. boring.
such a nice sunday and i wasted it. went down to grandpa's house to waste my time for like an hour? when i took like an hour plus to reach there? then went down to thomson area to borrow dvd. lol! pirates of the caribbean. watched it again. with the special features this time. piang. cannot watch finish one. the running time of the total amount of bonus features is more than 10 hours. *they write one.* but after watching a small section. i dont think they are lying. so damn long. like 45 minutes for a small section of a sub heading? it has two discs. the second one all special features. oh god. you guys should go borrow it. even if you watched it already. the special features will awe you.
so i am back here. again. with completely nothing to do but blog. which is kinda a bad thing. because it means i will bore you with wadever i am writing. see! i knew it! you. yes YOU! you are skipping the lines of what i am writing. darn it. i am going to continue watching tv.
livingherdreams;
+ 12:02 AM
Saturday, December 27, 2003
pippin's song.*
home is behind.
the world ahead.
and there are many paths to trail.
through shadow to the edge of night.
until the stars are all aligned.
mist and shadow.
cloud and shame.
the world shall fade.
all shall fade.
livingherdreams;
+ 11:11 PM
for you.*
i am no longer angry. nor pissed after reading what you wrote. maybe i really didnt bother to think on the bight side. of why you wrote those stuff. but. hey. because it was you. thats why i feel so down. so sad. so angry. so disappointed. so stunned. because it was you. although it wasnt a very long time i have known you. or neither was our friendship a very very close one. but you were someone i could talk to. someone who understood how i feel. thats why i was so damn angry when i saw what you wrote. den again. i forgot. you're someone. of a higher position. people do have their responsibilities to stick to huh?
livingherdreams;
+ 8:35 PM
Friday, December 26, 2003
27.*
2 years ago.
livingherdreams;
+ 9:25 PM
woke up very early in the morning to meet kim for breakfast then go for fancry rifle. desmond. amy. kok kiong. efonda and kian how came down today. so was exceptionally stressed when i was teaching the cadets. damn damn stressed. even jing ting also dont dare to teach. all of us were so stressed. including the cadets doing the drill. all off "form" because too stress le! lol! but it turned out pretty well when desmond taught us. lol. still he the best! *thank god for desmond*
went to paint banner after that. damn hilarious. had alot of fun and we managed to paint 3/4 of the banners lar. although it is not complete and probably not as nice as the firs one we did. but i think the concept is still there. lol. left school at about 6 and went to eat tom yam with kim and jing ting. den went to j8 to shop shop. met desmond again while waiting for kim's bus. talked abit of the unit's problems. lol.
i have to agree with what desmond said. although it is kinda difficult to accept. kcp really lack the ability to adapt. *maybe excluding kim laa.* i. personally. cannot. all i want to say is. desmond. dont worry. your words didnt fall onto deaf ears. i will relay your message and "influence" the others. i believe it will help in some way or another bah. lol lets hope. such an eventful day. haha. tml going to recky for the games with kim. damn. my life now seems to be for np only. but i am enjoying it! lol. *love np*
livingherdreams;
+ 8:50 PM
Thursday, December 25, 2003
of all people you had to say you wanted to give sympathy marks.
livingherdreams;
+ 10:04 PM
ah beng trying to impress and explain to ah lian what the lord of the rings trilogy was all about.
*the fellowship of the ring*
last time got this short short person with si-beh hairy legs called bilbo.
he,hor, got this ring that last time belong to some moster.
but then one day suay suay the monster want it back, and send his kah kiah to bilbo's house to settle lar.
but the ring hor, can make people very powderful. but then if you wear too long will kena. si beh hiong one, so better faster go and destroy.
so bilbo's nephew frodo and his friends kena arrow to go and destroy the ring.
but dont noe why also, they must go do it in the monster's home, which is at the end of new zeland there.
so they walk and walk and walk across new zeland. and then along the way, got
monster chase them, got people want to hoot them, some of them die-ded, all sorts of things, lah.
at the end, frodo and his pooi-pooi friend, sam got separated from the rest.
*the two towers*
frodo and sam meet up with this thing called gollum who look like he took too much slim 10.
at the same time, the other friends get into some powderful hooting session, where even the trees can do gong fu. they all fight over what, i also dunoe lah, but quite kan cheong lah.
*the return of the king*
in the end, frodo and his gang win lah. arbuthen?
*kindly brought to you by coxford singlish dictionary*
livingherdreams;
+ 9:24 PM
its christmas. yuchern is gone. and someone is coming back later. lol. someone huh. it is damn boring a christmas this year. no christmas spirit at all. hai. sian ahhz. and i am stuck at home watching tv. which is atcually not too bad. cause it is quite interesting. all the channels are showing nice shows that i dunoe which one to watch. lol. going out to shop later. with my mum. lol. suddenly feel so filial. lol.
so many things have happened. if you read jing ting and kim's blog. you will know what i mean. if you dont. let me fill you in. go read their blog. lol! bad or good expreience. i dont know. the only thing i know is that i will never want to let that happen again. neither will i acknowledge **** *** as my freaking ci. never! our unit if so fine without him. without. arg. so pissed off when i think about it now. nvm. shall go watch tv.
livingherdreams;
+ 1:00 PM
guess wad? i decided to blog again. tt's girls. fickled minded huh. =D
livingherdreams;
+ 12:44 AM
Thursday, December 11, 2003
last song.*
it's korean. so i did translation.
i will never cry and say how much i miss you.
you have always sat quietly beside me.
listening to me engrossed in talking.
i like the days where i have you by my side.
and there familiar shoulder of yours.
you who dont like to speak will always smile at me.
although those shifting eyes of yours make me feel uneased.
but i still believe in you deeply.
thank you. for telling me that you love me.
even though if we wont meet again.
i wouldnt forget all these.
thats why. i am fine alone.
i understood from the beginning.
that there was someone else in your heart.
but i still liked you.
only that i will ocasionally cry at night.
sorry. even if it is just one second.
i would also like to conquer all your thoughts.
all these wont change. because i only love you.
so please look at me. i will hold on strongly.
for the day you turn back.
thats why. i am fine alone.
*my translation suck. =x
livingherdreams;
+ 1:41 PM
it hurts.*
i guess this would be my last post after a long time of abondoning my blog. well. yea. so here it goes.
for all of you out there who hates me and cant wait to see me down. well. i guess this is your time to be happy huh. but hey! i wouldnt die! so dont be happy for long. but seriously. i wun be blogging anymore. since you can easily find out what i am doing from yc's and rachel's blog. not like you cant read. so. ya. i blogged. this blog. to wait. to accompany me in waiting for someone. someone who told me to wait. i didnt say anithing. really. i guess it was for my good too. since next year is o's. *gosh* but yesterday. i found out. he was with someone else all along. and he didnt tell me. my friend did. he used to be my good friend. what happened. even if he didnt feel the same way. surely i deserve to know? i dont hate the girl. she's really cute. i just hate him for lying. lying. and since its over. i wont blog no more. simple ehz. 27.*
livingherdreams;
+ 1:29 PM