Sunday, January 25, 2004
read her blog. den read yours. i see no link. no thing at all. but i cant help thinking of what happened. i cant help but feel sad. not because i still loved you all the same. but because you misplaced the trust i had in you. and it pains me to know that she might be going through the same. i want to tell her. i want to tell. but how would she think? that i was jealous? yet at the same time. i felt like keeping all these to myself. to let her have a taste of what it is like to be in my shoes. to let her feel what it is like to be lied to. and what it is like to be abondoned. for a moment. i really wished all that would have happened. so someone could understand. and although it seems stupid to be hurt by someone like you. i am. again. i may tell the whole world i am over you. but whats going through my preplexed head. i myself dont noe. love to see you fall. love to see you down. lets just hope i wont be doing the opposite when that day comes.
livingherdreams;
+ 1:26 AM
Saturday, January 24, 2004
third day into chinese new year and i am pissed. bloody hell. thi is going to be a short entry so dont complain. irritating. ya. apart from the fact that my ang bao collection was not bad. and i got to see both my cute nephew and cousin who are all under 2. these just cant override the hatred i am feeling now! ok laa. not hatred. but maybe. anger and bitterness! *argh* this part is dedicated to yc. =D
*you son of a bitch! you. argh! to think i believed you. piss me off! hope you die a horrible death. probably get kissed by a dementor. ( i have been reading the goblet of fire.) and yc! i assure you. its over! hah!*
ok. after venting my anger. i am feeling just fine. =D haha. so happy new year to the rest of you! lol. and btw. thanks danny! just feel that i owe you alot. lol. =] ok. thats all. lol.
livingherdreams;
+ 9:03 PM
Sunday, January 18, 2004
FINALLY. i get to blog. lol. ever since school started. it never started right. first of all. to sum up all the other complains my friends have. A*Y you SUC*. arg. lol. then it came to the orientation. which erm. i think went quite well. but it aint exactly the "well" i expected it to be. hai. buts its over. thought i could rest. i was wrong. the load of homework everyday was nuts. and. then have to plan the first parade for sec1s. which wasnt easy. planned most of it le. then suddenly about 3 ncos tell me they cant go because of some sec3 camp recce. and two of them were heads! that means we have 2 heads left. so i tried to make the best out of it. then nvm. continue planning. then! i couldnt go because of some CNY perfomance the reheasrsal. i cant spell. stuupiid. damn it. means. only one head left. so i passed all the stuff needed to be done to my senior. lol. unfair to her ahh. feel so sorry. but *thanks alot huiting!* lol.
the day came.
i was expecting only 20 plus to turn up. lol. instead we had 39! so happy. lol. the proceed on the games. at first abit disorganised. but went well laterr. and norman said we did a good job! god. lol. interesting dude. then i went for the stupid CNy thingy. which eat up all my time. then went back to take care of the sec1s. they got attitude problem lar. but they are so damn cute. haha. hope they dont leave np. lol.
then went for the meet-the-parents sission. b-o-r-i-n-g. i was waiting for the "shopping" session. went down to far east. the momnet i stepped in. shit. so damn bloody crowded. wrong choice. but still bought my skirt. thats all. then went home lor. =)
had tuition. bought a bag. no more. lol. i dunoe what to blog le. lol. going to grandpa house later. tata.
livingherdreams;
+ 11:55 AM
Friday, January 02, 2004
wads the point of going to school?
you just sit there listen to mr lawrence tan yak for like i think 3 periods before he said. "ok. i am going to start." then we were all like, "start wad? physics?" and unfortunately. the answer was yes. damn it. so we had him teaching for another period. den went down to the hall. *we were the latest, thanks to lawrence tan.* and then mr goh shared about his thoughts and erm. well. got some people to share with him what kcpians were all about. apparently. all the wrong people volunteered. yes. i am toking bout kim and vern neng here. and the day just ends after chan sp class when he announced, on the first day of school. that our o'levels chinese is 6 months away. damn!
had np for awhile. the contigent was really pissing me off. damn it. arg. can tell jing ting very tired having to cope with psl and np at the same time. hope she somehow manages lar. i cannot lose her. lol. den went down to citylink to garb some stuff. and now i am at yc's house doing some proposal for tml. kinda rush. but i think inspirations come when you do not have time. lol! hmm. aniwae. i am doing it at her house. because my house do not have the microsoft programme. lol. and i am not spending money to buy an original one. hmm. when is the next pasar malam coming? =x there will be a meeting tml. god bless me. hai. shall go rush out some work. till there.
livingherdreams;
+ 6:07 PM
Thursday, January 01, 2004
its official! gst is up to 5%. damn. happy new year to all! didnt blog last night. because while all my friends were having fun at sentosa. i was slogging my guts out at home in preparation for my orientation proposal this saturay. not like i blame them for having fun without me. i dont like crowded places too. really. lol. can see from kim's blog that they had fun. lottas of fun.
been having a major headache since yesterday when i tried on my first pair of soft lens. *for those who dont know, i cant survive on hard lens.* had problem putting on the left lens. so erm. you can imagine the feeling of having a sharp vision with your right eye. and a blur one on your left. you get a major, yes MAJOR headache. damn it. and it doesnt go away! pissing me off. lol.
oh dear. tml we are starting school. and my homework. okay. lets say that i had kind of a memory loss about homework in the holidays. other than working. i had lots of other things to handle and care about. hehe. so. bye bye homework. oh ya. and kenneth chow chee hoe actually have the cheek to call me and ask me if i did any homework. great. and i have to listen to him telling me what homework he has done. which is actually and surprising almost everything of what the teacers has given us. lol. hardworking ahh. kinda excited that i am going back to school tml. but the thought of my sister going there too. turns me off. lol. so. we shall see. and erm. all the best to those who havent finish their homework. =)
livingherdreams;
+ 6:19 PM