Sunday, April 25, 2004
shouts out loud: thanks chongwei! =)
havent been updating my blog, i know, i know. so many things are happening around me, be it within my control or not. but i did learn alot of things within these few days. lol. and i think theres quite a few people i have to thank.
kim: omma! oh gawd! i lovee you. thank you so so so much for being there for me that night. i really needed you to be there. i think thank you would be a word to under-describe what youve done for me. but, my vocab is limited. so, thank you! =)
jing ting: i shall stop treating you like rosemary. i promise you. though you may not know about what have been going on, but youre presence in my life have been a great consolation to me. no matter what you do, just dont leave my life. gam sa ham ni da!
lao da: thank you for having breakfast with me everyday. it brightens up my day. really. =)
kelvin: thanks for cheering me up these few days. thank you soooooo much! lol!
but most of all, i would like to thank chong wei! lol. thank you chong wei! it has beena great pleasure knowing you for 4 years! lol. and you know what? out of all my supposedsingly good friends, chong wei is the only soul who assured me that he has faith in me if i wanted to venture into drama! thats like so consoling! chong wei, you'll never know how much those words mean to me, but really. thank you. =D
my life is bad. but it could have been worse. so i pray and thank God. that he had planned my path for me. for He has His reasons, no matter what He does to me. and like kim said, i lost someone who doesnt love me. but he lost someone who have loved him with all she has got. i cant pretend this is nothing to me. cause it is everything.
have some faith in me, i'll soar with my wings one day. just wait and see. *dramawannabe*
livingherdreams;
+ 4:56 PM
Sunday, April 18, 2004
shouts out loud: feel so dumb.
well, founders day. quite excited. though i had to get up real early to make it to school on time. thanks to kims father, i didnt have to wake up even earlier. reached school and we started painting our faces. kindof useless. considering it all smudged when we sweated. okay, then the parade started. me and kim were those in front. wad were we suppose to do? not screw up. what did we do? screw up. thats it. thats all i am going to reveal about our performance. then went for indoor parade. had a great time. not with the content of the programme though. *winks at kim* =p thanks to zhi hao and alvin who came to support us! =p
was supposed to go eat with jing ting and her gang. but, had to rush to make it for npcc day, so i kind of ps ah jing. =x sorry. then met kim so that her father could smuggle us into ps. lol. her father is cool. and i came up with this lame theory. 'one pass to rule tham all'. =p sounds familiar? then drove up, found a parking space. but was too earlier. so drove down. and went to grab some food. at the senior officers mass. woarhs! it looks like a palace inside okay! soooo coool! lol. then went back and waited for awhile before parade started. then guess who i spotted? zhi hao! lol. then parade went on laa. not too bad. i think they did really well. three cheers for all participating cadets and cis! =D
after parade. i did something really really stupid. and i am still feeling stupid right now. hai. this is going to follow me for the rest of my life. hai. *stares at kim* afterall, i am only a npcc mate.
went home, bathed, feel asleep, and didnt reply someone's msg. *woops* sorry. =x
you looked smart! =p
livingherdreams;
+ 11:59 AM
Thursday, April 15, 2004
shouts out loud: maybe you people out there should stop lying to me!
i hate this world revolving around me. why do people enjoy lying to me? no one listens to me! i hate hate hate hate hate this.
i need you. right at this moment.
livingherdreams;
+ 8:47 PM
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
shouts out loud: proud of you!
kim got punk'd by me! lol! this proves something, i can act after all! but to my dismay, upon checking out the websites of our local universities, i realise there is no drama courses! ahh! this cant be it. oh no, what am i suppose to do then?
okay, had founders day rehearsal today, got really fed up with my cadets. been really touchy these few days whenever i came in contact with them. perhaps because i found out that, hey, they really do lack the discpline. god, that took me ages to find out. i really needed someone to talk to, but well. no one did. so, i'll take it to my grave. wished you were there though. okay, coming back to founders day. it aint really pleasant if you had to do a performance, quite covered up, in the damn hot sun in a cursed humid weather of singapore. to think, just yesterday, i wanted to get this shirt which printed 'the weather is fine'. i bet i would have gotten whacked or something like that. lol. and well, the session ended with a short discussion. shallnt reveal too much about what it was.
to my dearest friend (the one who was the narrator while i was little red riding hood. yea, you!) : i think its time. its time to sit down and think. think of the goods, think of the bads. think of who youll end up hurting, and who youll end up loving. think of your dear friend me, and understand my perspective. think of my dear friend him, and understand how he feels. the answers are laid before you. and remember my lesson learnt. a person can still change her fated destiny, simply by making a wise decision.
it freaks me. how we tend to see things in a different way, how we tend to judge people with different colours as age sets in upon us. how long have it been since you sat down and learn to appreciate things around you.
proud of you! proud of you! proud of you! just want to let you know, youre appreciated and definitely not outcasted! =)
livingherdreams;
+ 8:59 PM
Saturday, April 10, 2004
shouts out loud: i am so tired!
came so early to school for founders day rehearsal and they actually started late! irritating. i was so tired okay! couldnt they have let me sleep longer? arg. nvm. the rehearsal started. and the sun started to shine in our direction too. should have brought my sun tan lotion! lol. i think the npcc-ers were great help to the sjab-ians. cause we were all black, absorbing all the heat for them! lol. then well, all went pretty fine. if you exclude the part because we couldnt hear the music and i had to shout for kim across the parade square for her to run out. lol. second rehearsal, not too bad. =)
aha! finished, was slacking around while my dear rosemary was playing with empty plastic bottles. and i msg someone, and that someone called back! =D hehe. then went to united square to slack with that bunch of npcc-ers and wanting and jessie. had lots of fun, though most of it was quite lame. =) enjoyed myself today.
went to meet jolyn to go to lido to catch the rpince and me. guess what? second day in the row sold out! ahhh! and it is not like that show is screening everywhere! someone save me! if anyone can like secure me a sit in the movie, i'll go with you! =) thats how desperate i am for that movie. then in the end, we went shopping! yesh! me and my abc darling bought the same wallet from m)phorsis. not too bad looking. lol. 9 bucks. aha! then went to mos to slack and talk about soem cca matters! lol. lets just admit it, bb boys are meant for gb girls! *winkz at abc darling!*
came home for 5 minute before going out dinner with mum. aha! kfc! nice and oily! eewwwkks. lol. my mum is cunning. she tried to squeeze out ome stuff from me! but aha! i am smart. =p todays my sister's birthday! and my dear 6 years friend did his job. good boy. =) hehe.
to my abc darling : dont think too much okay? be happy with who you are now and today! love you lots. so dont worry! you got me to fall back on! =D
today is my happiest day out of my gloomiest! thank you! =p lalala! lol
livingherdreams;
+ 9:18 PM
shouts out loud: i am at jolyn's house!
laalaalaa! dont know why i am here either! lol. what came out of my mouth as a casual remark became reality! thanks to my abc darling who is willing to accomodate to me! lol. *african born chinese = jolyn foo* lol! and i am brazilian, thats means. i am bbc! *the news channel* and phoebe is pakistan! lol! *oops* no racial discord ahh.
met jolyn and billy quite late so that she could fetch me to her house. was planning to catch a movie, but unfortunately, due to certain unfortunate factors, we had to skip that movie part. so we went to pizza hut and ate until all the cutsomers left but us! the atmosphere was wierd. i bet the staff hated us for taking our time to eat. then came to jolyn's house and here i am blogging.
theres a full dress rehearsal tomorrow. and as i am typing this here, jolyn is ironing her uniform! aha! np no need to wear full u! =p anyway, got to wake up real early tomorrow because thanks to dorothy tay, we are starting at 8.15! thats kind of early you know? so i better chao first! =p good night! *muackiez*
is it me? or am i just dreaming? still missing you! =)
livingherdreams;
+ 12:13 AM
Thursday, April 08, 2004
shouts out loud: even heros can dream, what about me?
alot has been on my mind lately. and i really mean alot.
i dream to do drama! hello! how come no one seems to realise my interest lies in drama, not biology! and yea, stupid arts school starts only in 2007. thanks ahh. got really disappointed that i couldnt enter that stupid arts school. but still, i want to study drama! arg.
i realised something after like 1 year plus. it's about my literature text. erm, i just found out the male and female lead had sexual interactions! after 1 year plus. =x i feel so dumb. oh no. i think i will fail my literature! lol. but on the other hand, see how innocent i am! lol!
founders day drawing nearer and nearer and nearer. stepping down also nearer and nearer and nearer. nvm. but chinese o levels also coming! ahh! oh no! i simply hate paying $400 bucks to sit for an exam. because you'll be so worried about wasting money! lol.
rosemary is mad. she's been instigating me to go to war with people. ah jing.< click here to view. ahh! she's mad. *oops* lol. oh ya. i realised something. she's like sam! and i am frodo! muahaha! yea! but i dont have curly hair. and i dont go crazy over a gold ring. =)
nothing much happening right now. except, yea. really nothing! =p okay, shall stop here.
missing you. =)
livingherdreams;
+ 10:32 PM
Monday, April 05, 2004
shouts out loud: i am a curse breaker! *boomz*
line of the day! 'i will slap you till you turn purple' *william! this is for you! lol. =p*
had lots of fun today. though i not really sure if it has set into me yet. wait. i am sure it hasnt. okay, had a relatively fine day in school. english was perfectly taught in a well ventilated room called the computer lab. lol. i was typing half way, when this giant pic of kim and george pop out from my friend's com which was next to me. it sure jolted me! but, well. kim was kind of freaked out so as to why her picture was there! =p
had founders day. tiring ah. maybe because there was a lack of sleep. hmm. fine, not too bad. i reckon this rehearsal was better than the previous one. *hey! it is suppose to be like that! =x* then, did alot of stupid stuff laa. i mean, seriously, when you are with rosemary, it is hard not to. she just instigates you to. lol. came home to chiong cme project. which up till this moment, i am not done with yet. hai.
oh ya, scold me. i have been playing harry potter! lol! sounds childish ehh! wait till you get your hands on it. you'll be competing with me in no time. still waiting for the sims, which rosemary has kindly forgotten to bring. ahh!
cheer up! cheer up! cheer up! cheer up! cheer up! =) hehe, hope this helps you to feel less, well erm. ya less not so cheerful. =]
livingherdreams;
+ 10:22 PM
Friday, April 02, 2004
shouts out loud : i tore my np skirt, again.
dont laugh! i tore my skirt. oh man, out of 4 years, i tore both of my skirts. new and old. this is so embarrassing. and to think i have npcc service day tml! greeaat. thanks! but hey, i get to wear pt kit. =x hmm, heard i will be covering my own block tml about crime prevention. imagine talking to my father about crime prevention! lol! thats hilarious. theres really alot of good movies coming up! so excited! whee! like erm, hidalgo *already showing*, taking lives *also already showing*, the prince and me *another fantasy story*, troy *huge huge star factor - orlando and brad*, harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban *watch out for emma watson* and spongebob squarepants! yea! =D save bikini bottom! =p
hey! i skipped sports day. lol! supposed to meet zhi hao to grab kim's present. but the rain was torrenting outside the windows of my house. so i msged him to tell him i couldnt get out. told him i'll msg him again. and when i did, he just got onto the train. talk about fateless. there is no better example than this. =p
been drinking alot of milk lately, people said its good for the brains. but it aint working! my common test results came back today! oh boy, you dont wanna know. doubt i could even enter my desired course. *damn* its time to wake up! *slap slap* lol, chao. anyway, congrats kim. =p
youre it! youre the ultimate! its automatic im sure of it. no lie! so dont even try to tell me that youre not the guy. cause ive been waiting all my life, for someone just like you. youre it. youre the ultimate, you. - lindsay lohan, ultimate.
livingherdreams;
+ 8:26 PM