Saturday, May 29, 2004
shouts out loud: pms mode.
im officially in my pms mode. i dont know why! lol. okay, at least i was in yesterday. and i threw my temper at poor innocent people. okay, actually only one person. =x im so sorry knight! lol, really really didnt mean it. hope you dont hold it against me for that. =x girls do really tend to be unreasonable huh! *winks at kim*
went to watch the day after tomorrow yesterday. nice show, nice effects, good plot, nice big comfy theatre, wrong poeple i went to watch with! lol. =x it is a great show, the effects is cool. i mean, its amazing what you can do with computers nowadays, other than cheating poor harmless girls online. it is a must-see! but if youre kind of paranoid, dont watch it. you'll probably be worried sick if you ever see raindrops again. lol.
chinese o'levels is like on monday. can someone please remind me to bring my ic? if not i can like wait another 6 more months. gawd. got back my report book. hah! you dont want to know! its bad, really bad. as bad as i can imgaine it to be. damn it! i promise myself i will study really really hard.
so i shall start now.
i cant hold out any longer, im scared.
livingherdreams;
+ 10:28 AM
Thursday, May 27, 2004
shouts out loud: happy birthday, my knight! =)
as well as to belinda and my dear son, clarence. lol! so many people that i know so happen to be given borth on the same day. cool! =p cross country. what does that mean? major slacking! yipee! lol. thats basically what i was doing for 3/4 of the time. i didnt even perspire a single drop! lol. thats how slack i was. lol! after that went to thomson with jing ting to eat. i hate claypot rice. then by the twist of fate, ended up in orchard with valerie and company and my knight. lol.
how i wish i could be there to tell you how much i care. how i want to be by your side comforting you. how i wish to tell you no matter what the others think you'll be perfect in my eyes. how i want to be the one to be able to cheer you up. but, that will not come true. that will just be dreams. that will be nothing. because, we're no longer nothing at all.
to my knight: thank you, cause you make me feel special.
my life is changing. im changing. i feel it. this is scary. whats happening? i havent even pass my 16th birthday! (okay, this is irrelevant) i dont want to change! gawd. i like being who i am now. =x i think i sniffed too much glue from outside the newprint shop at hereen. lol! my head hurts.
somethings are just too late for regrets, like you.
livingherdreams;
+ 9:27 PM
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
shouts out loud: dunchwanna let go.
four years of my life. all four years of my life, though i must admit i was shaken at some points of time, ive given my very best to np. ive given all that i could. and now im leaving. it just cant seem to make any sense to me. how could i leave my life? how could i suddenly change what has become a habit. its impossible! what will i be doing very saturday morning now? oh gawd, someone save me. i dont wanna let go, well. but i dont have a choice. i'll miss everyone. i grew up in np, my life is there. all i know is there. why? hai, its hard to say good bye. maybe thats why lao da is still in np. =x
tuition. a maths. last session. doubt im going anymore, cause im dropping a maths. lol. shocked? you should be. caused im ungraded for amaths mid year! lol. my tuition teacher encouraged me to drop! lol.
to my knight: i cant believe you give up so easily. i cant believe you didnt ask the princess, i cant believe you didnt tell her. if its him, what more can i do? i just need you to tell me the truth. is it that difficult to do?
it ends with the pain and the making amends.
livingherdreams;
+ 10:45 PM
Monday, May 24, 2004
shouts out loud: woarhs!
i just realise that me, jing ting and kelvin are from the same kindergarten class! lol! after like 2 years then i found out! stupid! =p wah, i feel so slow! =)
mock exam today! lol, for once. i remembered to drink brands chicken essence! lol, so i managed to keep awake. lol, yes! but, i was still writing crap! nvm, hope to do better. =p my mock exam paper day one came back, not too bad. one mark better than my mid-year. =D
hai, had meeting to plan for the camp. was expecting more people to turn up, but well. this just goes to show how much some people care about their unit. hai, i cant believe im leaving np soon. 4 years pass so fast. it seems like yesterday when i was in chs for the swearing in ceremony. and to think, in 2 more months, i will have nothing to do with pa. hai! life!
boring! went to macdonalds to eat with ahh jing, and guess what? we saw a primary school guy who looks like zhu ba jie! and i dont mean the shape, i eman his face. what luck! =p
temple of the sea of wisdom, see the phoenix rise.
livingherdreams;
+ 9:06 PM
Sunday, May 23, 2004
shouts out loud: leave me alone!
why cant you just leave me alone? why cant you just pretend i dont exist? stop wishing me well! i dont want you to wish me well! dont let me know you care! do you udnerstand how much more difficult you are making it for me? just live in your own world of love, and i shall live in my own. im just asking you to pretend i dont exist. should be easy for you.
wanted to step out of house today for tution when ahh jing called. haha1 millie is sick! oh dear, so we meet to plan camp instead. which brings me back to the fact that i should be rushing a proposal instead of blogging. lol. couldnt resist the temptation. trying to find a suitable pouch for the damn camp. lol.
theres a mock exam tomorrow, which i promised to study for. well, i shall study for wednesday's! lol. i am going to convinve vanessa (ijtp) to watch confessions with me. lol. then we can both scream our heads off together. lol! yea! we both have the exact same aspirations. and i mean exact. lol. but, after the audition, i somehow wondered if im meant to do what i want to do. hai. this is stupid.
like winter nights need fire, like temples need a shrine. like lovers need desire, like prophets need a sign. i need him, cant he see? i need him, to be mine. - forbidden city.
livingherdreams;
+ 6:26 PM
Saturday, May 22, 2004
shouts out loud: theres so much i want to say!
had np, well. not exactly the nicest 'last' parade i would say. owells, should have expected it. finally, camp is finalised and we are now rushing against what controls man- time. has anyone even realised the importance of time? lol. im like so into reasoning. lol. this is dumb. i offically love germaine! she helped me gain so much confidence and went through last minute practices with me! =) erskine didnt come today. lol!
had audition, cant say much. actually, dont know what to say about it. but i definitely had fun and gained lots of expreience! lol. still, i could have done better. =p if i had actually bothered looking for a more presentable monologue. well, notice is coming in in a weeks time. we shall see.
yes! ive secured two tickets to the movie, harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban! thats how desperate i am to see rupert grint. lol. desperate. lol. wanted to watch the previews, but. well, i have to accomodate to kim for once. im not that a spoilt princess after all. =p
i need to avoid you. i should avoid you. i must avoid you. you dont understand how weak i am. affected by the mere emotions of man. love. depression. i need to get away from you. i need to pretend you dont exist. i need to, or i'll never forget you. 'we're still friends' is a mistake i never should have made. because it'll never be.
why love when love hurts? why love when love ends? i know how it feels, when it turns and pretend.why love when theres peace in the making of friends? -forbidden city.
livingherdreams;
+ 8:55 PM
Friday, May 21, 2004
shouts out loud: jibberishh!
had mock exam today. lol. someone remind me to take chicken essence the next time i have a mock exam. so that i wont fall alseep after doing half the paper, and end up writing what? jibberishh! lol. so, dont expect to do well. will study for my next exam, after my audition. which is tomorrow. which reminds me my throat hurts cause i sing too much. which reminds me my monologue is still not created and unpractised. which reminds me im probably gonna fail tomorrow anyway. damn. this stinks. and i have to leave parade early. damn it. hai.
talked to my oc about camp today. looks like its gonna be a busy week for me. everything is cramped into one single week. and thats horrible! stressed, later need to go imh howw? =x ( this is my zuo wen question) lol.
im so gald i dont have to talk to you, i dont have to hear your voice, i dont have to see that face i once yearned to see so much. im gald its over, its the end. cause i dont want to talk about it and cause me pain. for in your heart, it is not me.
i'll be what i want to be and be the next drama queen. =) but if only you were there for me.
livingherdreams;
+ 6:38 PM
Thursday, May 20, 2004
shouts out loud: my only chance, love stay by my side.
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: i want to cry!
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: one more week.
livingherdreams;
shouts out loud: yea! mid year is overrrrr!
livingherdreams;
its official! im a desperate and hopeless movie addict. ive been mugging, yea, except ive been mugging on my first magazine. lol. yea, how great. if they have an exam on upcoming movies, i dont have to worry. but, well. oh mann, im so so excited with all those upcoming movies. damn it. i need hermonie's time turner! lol. see what i mean? maybe ive mugged for too long, that ive become desperate for some entertainment. lol. so heres my movie list,
livingherdreams;
in case you havent noticed, i love attention. =) livingherdreams;
that girl.*
livingherdreams;
lol! thats the line from forbidden city. wow! its like les miserables standard. and thats alot to be wowed about, cause its a singaporean production. haha! its so damn nice, really really nice. lol, but. i cant make copies of the dvd. =|
went to pa yesterday with the sec1s to collect their uniform. havoc knows a new name - kcpnp sec1 squad. they are by far the most chaotic and noisiest bunch of cadets ive ever knew. lol. maybe other than ourselves. lol. then we were assembled in the drill shade to give our buttons, and something stupid happened. we finally decided that guys get three big buttons, so:
-all the boys raise their hands-
me: why all of you dont have?
jingting: cause its in the plastic bag.
-she pulls out the big buttons, and we all started luaghing.
for once, ah jing is smart. lol.
today was boring, i mean. got back some more papers. dont want to put my marks up until my english papers come back, so you guys shall have to wait. lol. alsagoff is an extremely inefficient staff given her seniority. she held us back for an hour or so to arrange us in order for the mock exam. wow. so fast. then wanted to go to suntec, but spoilt. by who? duhh.
auditions in two days. scary, cause ive not done my monologue. lol. so hardworking ahh. so i shall go try to come out with one, shall blog soon again. soon i promise.
i need the faith, the love, the courage, the hope, the trust and all that is in you to be with me.
+ 5:14 PM
Sunday, May 16, 2004
lord of the rings exhibition doesnt open on monday! damn it! this sucks! arg! when im like free, it isnt open! wah! im like devastated! haha. this is dumb.
went out to meet kim today. for once, im late. its seldom im late. but i had tuition, so i have every single right to be late.
lol. =p was suppose to study, but after mid year? thats dumb. so we went shopping instead. poa, sales. so bought a shirt. lol. for the audition. ahaa. then went down to seiyu. oh no, bought even more. we both bought earrings and kim bought an additional nail polish stuff. lol. then, giordano. bought something again. im going to save from NOW on. lol. stop spending! lol.
my earholes are bleeding again. everytime i change my earring. it bleeds. how much blood is there in my ear? lol. =x okay, that was a really stupid statement, considering im a biology student. lol.
since theres no lotr, think im meeting justin tomorrow. yea, since i have not met him for a really long time.lol.
heath ledger! oh my god! haha, hes the sexiest hunk alvine next to orlando bloom. haha. hes like, cool. lol. =p
the nearer the date, the more the confidence drain out of me.
+ 10:13 PM
Saturday, May 15, 2004
oh mi goodness, ive never felt so stressful in my life. never felt the pressure of being fat! lol. but now i am. and within a short week i am going to exercise and lose as much of it as possible. this just sucks. why didnt anyone of you warn me not to eat so much. now im fat and its your fault. okay, just trying to blame everyone but myself. lol. just one more week. *winks at kim*
i need your support right now, though i know i wont have it. i just need you to encourage me and walk me through this. but it seems useless saying all these. when your heart belongs to another.
borrrriiiiing day. borrrriiiiiinnnnnngggggggg. ahh! but for once, i got to wake up late on a saturday because there is no np! muahahaha! the enjoyment. =)
god, if you cant make me any slimer. make the other people fatter. =)
+ 8:37 PM
Friday, May 14, 2004
okay, im officially crowned the g-ahead-and-leave-two-water-bottles-in-the-toilet-in-two-different-toilets-in-a-day girl. how wonderful! and both were not even 1/4 empty! damn. okay, but theres someone dumber than me! lol! who? kim! shes the threw-my-newly-bought-earrings-into-the-dustbin-girl. haha. had sooo much fun today.
feeling so guilty now. bought a what i can say ordinarylooking red colour tracks which cause me 89 bucks. well, i think it was very good of me to give up the matching t-shirt which was 79 bucks. lol. if not i would have spent 168 bucks. hehe! thanks to kim who went shopping for me.
troy troy troy! woarhs! it deserves 5 starsss! yea! wow! and you wont believe what i was doing in the theatre. i was actualyl scolding orlando bloom! lol. or rather, paris. the guy orlando bloom was playing. so dont worry, im still lovin him. lol! okay, i have to admit. brad pitt looks cute when he is fustrated! lol. and hes skirt was short, short. lol! raise the hemline! =x but the producers twisted the history quite abit. lol. watch and figure which part im talking about yourself. check our the iliad too.
had a change of manicurist today. good earth nail spa! woarhs! nice comfy placey. yea, go there too okay? lol. anyway, chemists! ive got no paper on monday! finally visting lotr exhibition with rachie! yes! =D
watch over me, hold my hand, and walk me through this time.
+ 11:31 PM
Saturday, May 08, 2004
*troy! (omg! must watch! orlando stars.)
*confessions of a teenage drama queen (lindsay lohan! and drama! wow! no ones stopping me!)
*new york minute (olsen twinnies! meaning, good show. =p)
*harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban (okay! this is IT. IT! like i'll never miss this in a million gizillion tribillion years.)
*the calcium kid (creamy boxer. yummms. yea, orlando.)
*gossip girls (lindsay again. late 2004 i think)
*kingdom of heaven (orlando yet again! late 2005)
*cinderella (hilary duff! my favourite female artist is back! yea!)
*the challenge (when they hell is it coming to singapore? starring olsen twins.)
*princess diaries 2 (supposedsingly 2004, but it aint coming out ahh.)
*harry potter and the goblet of fire (dont blame me, shootings started. late 2005 or 2006.)
*lordoftherings the return of the king extended version(wow! power up to the epic's most emotional finale.)
and also,
ned kelly! damn it! why the hell is it nc-16? yeeekkks! *whines* okay, not working. see what i mean? i pratically just listed almost all the movies. lol. i am dyiiinnnnnng to watch them! lol. *muackiez* to all those movie makers and directors. lol. keep on making movies, and i'll keep on going ga-ga over them. =p
+ 9:32 PM
+ 4:40 PM
*confessionsofateenagedramaqueen*
There was a girl I knew
Who always wanted to
Be the one to stand up from the crowd
Always believed that she
Was gonna live her dreams
That what came down was gonna come around
For all the doubters non-believers
The cynical that once were dreamers
One of these days you'll open up your eyes
And you'll realize
That girl was a onetime teenage drama queen
A hacked-up everyday wannabe
But she'll have changed her destiny
Now she's a somebody
That girl was a wild-child dreamer
But she'll find herself
Cause she believes in nothing else
Then you'll look back and you won't believe
That girl was me
Armed with an attitude
That she knows how to use
She's gonna get there anyway she can
Now she knows what she wants
No one is gonna stop her
Nothing can ever hold her back
For all the doubters non-believers
The cynical that once were dreamers
One of these days you'll know that you were wrong
Who would know
That girl was a onetime teenage drama queen
A hacked-up everyday wannabe
But she'll have changed her destiny
Now she's a somebody
That girl was a wild-child dreamer
But she'll find herself
Cause she believes in nothing else
Then you'll look back and you won't believe
That girl was me
Life is a work of art
You gotta paint it colorful
You can make it anything you want
Don't even stick to any rules
You don't need a high IQ
To succeed in what you do
You just gotta have no doubt
Just believe in yourself
Doubters non-believers
Once were dreamers
One of these days you'll open up your eyes
And you'll realize
That girl was a onetime teenage drama queen
A hacked-up everyday wannabe
But she'll have changed her destiny
Now she's a somebody
That girl was a wild-child dreamer
But she'll find herself
Cause she believes in nothing else
Then you'll look back and you won't believe
That girl was me
+ 4:37 PM