Saturday, June 26, 2004
shouts out loud: i hate euro.
first spain didnt get into the quarter finals. and now france got trashed by greece! im not watching euro anymore! arg! poop henry, poor torres. stupid! this is so not happening. ahh! i didnt bet laa, but still!
went to surprise han bin with his birthday dinner yesterday. lol, sounds dumb ehh? met up with some of my ex-ncos and rong li before meeting han bin and his girlfriend. ate, the food not bad. maybe i can hold my birthday lunch there too. lol, had a fun time. lol, i dont really get to see my ex=ncos often you know?
was supposed to go to CHS homecoming day today. lol, i promised alvin. but, because i caught the match last night, i overslept! lol. so, im so sorry alvin! =p
ive decided to go for a facial on my birthday. lol.
expelliarmus!
livingherdreams;
+ 3:24 PM
Friday, June 25, 2004
as requested, im updating my list. lol.
my wishlist:
1. a pair of levis jeans
2. burberry brit *this is expensive*
3. a pair of dreamcatcher earrings *noone seems to be able to find this*
4. a schoolbag *the adiddas, france one!*
5. a clutch
6. the lv handbag
7. a bohemian top! yes! *i dont know where to shop for this*
that should be it. lol. =p
livingherdreams;
+ 1:15 PM
shouts out loud: tired!
its been a long time since i blogged. lol! and i cant remember what i do! thats worst! lol. nvm, shall update on wednesday and yesterday! lol.
wednesday
movie marathon! lol! brought my sister and brother to watch harry potter. cool! this time, instead of watching the movie, i was listening to the sounds! lol, but its still so cool! its a nice movie! hah! the second time too, okay! then after that i came out early and had to sit at the front of the cinema entrance and wait for alvin li. do you know how pathetic i looked? lol. thne he came, we bought the tickets and went to eat. around the world in 80 days is a hilarious movie. hilarious but okay. i think jackie chan could have given better. lol. but owells, not too bad. should catch it on a 6.50 day. then after movie, went to eat again. lol, now you know why im fat! lol.
thursday
met yuchern earlier to accompany her to shopping. i think we went to 3 different levis outlet and 2 different adiddas outlet to find what she want, and we didnt! lol. went to levis to try a pair of jeans, not bad. (or so says yuchern.) but yuchern kindly gave me a pair too. *cause she cant wear it!* but still, thanks a million! lol. then we went to U.R.S., saw the word 'sale'. lol! we bought the same of sandals, different colour. then we went down to jinfengs bbq. damn it! they set me up! lol, and i didnt at the very least suspect it! lol. they made me walk the dog, and when i came back, they had a birthday cake. i still had the cheek to ask whose birthday it is! lol. but my birthday is still a week away! aiyooh, but cool! thanks many many lots! lol. then went to meet alivn to fetch kimberly. could tell she had alot of fun. but i saw this guy who fractured his arm, lol. its her buddy. then we went to eat and i came home shortly after. and i satyed up to watch the match! lol, but i fell asleep midway. so who won? lol.
meeting kim later, to go for something. hah! wouldnt tell you what it is!
i will not allow history to repeat itself.
livingherdreams;
+ 12:58 PM
Monday, June 21, 2004
kope-d another one. =D
1. YOUR HOROSCOPE?
--- cancer
2. SiNGLE OR TAKEN?
--- single.
3. iF TAKEN, BY WHO?
--- if. =D
4. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN SERiOUSLY HURT BY THE
PERSON YOU LOVE/D?
--- yea.
5. WHAT WOULD BE YOUR REASON iF YOU TURNED
SUiCiDAL?
--- doing this. *hah!*
6. iS SUiCiDE REALLY KiLLiNG YOURSELF?
--- no, it could be killing YOU; if it pleases.
7. PREFER COUNTRY OR CLASSiC?
--- classic. theyre classics because theyre classic.
8. PREFER CUTE/iDiOT OR SMART/UGLY?
--- cute;smart. lol!
9. ARE YOU iN A STABLE RELATiONSHiP WiTH YOUR
BF/GF/CRUSH?
--- this is a stupid quiz that repeats itself!
10. YOU`D EXPECT A TEXT MESSAGE USUALLY FROM:
--- a person. a hamster couldnt have texted me a msg right?
11. HAVE A BEST FRiEND THAT iS iN THE OPPOSiTE
GENDER? WHO?
--- yea, you dont have to know. lol.
12. WHAT DO YOU LiKE DOiNG WHEN YOU`RE DEPRESSED?
--- sleep?
13. CHEERFUL OR BORiNG?
--- cheerfully bored.
14. DESCRiBE A PERFECT DATE.
--- one without YOU. lol, that'll be the most fun!
15. EVER WONDERED WHY NOBODY KNOWS WHY THE SKY
iS BLUE? WHAT DO YOU THiNK?
--- theres a reason, somewhere.
16. EVER BEEN HURT BY LOVE?
--- yea.
17. WiLL YOU EVER MAKE THE SAME MiSTAKE AGAiN?
WITH LOVE???
--- one bitten, twice shy dear. =p
18. EVER HATED ANYONE LiKE HELL?
--- oh yea, but its a thing. that BLACK one?
19. DO ANYTHiNG WHEN A PERSON BREAKS UP
WiTH YOU AFTER ONE DAY?
--- i usually just cry then go to sleep. lol.
20. GiVE ONE WORD THAT BEST DESCRiBES WHAT
YOU`RE FEELiNG NOW.
--- pain.
21. DO YOU BELiEVE iN YOURSELF?
--- yes, i do! =D
22. EVER PHYSiCALLY HURT YOURSELF?
--- ive pulled my own muscle before! wait, how about i stepped on my finger and fractured it?
23. EVER VERBALLY HURT YOURSELF?
--- like saying im dunb? lol, yes!
24. MOTTO iN LiFE.
--- believe in yourself?
26. HAVE YOU EVER HAD *EXTRA* FEELiNGS ABOUT A
BEST FRiEND FROM THE OPPOSiTE GENDER?
--- yea.
27. iF YES, WHAT DiD YOU DO ABOUT iT? iF NO,
WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
--- =D
28. iS FAME & MONEY THE MOST iMPORTANT THiNGS iN
YOUR LiFE?
--- fame is, at least it is to me. lol.
29. DO YOU MAKE ANY MOVEMENTS OR SOUNDS WHEN
YOU`RE SLEEPiNG?
--- like snore? lol, nope!
30. ARE YOU DiFFiCULT TO WAKE UP?
--- not really, unless im drugged.
31. HOW OFTEN DO YOU SLEEP?
--- erm, what i need to.
32. ARE YOU CONVENiENT WiTH THAT?
--- YES.
33. LAST, HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT YOU WERE PERFECT?
--- nope, but if you stop striving to be perfect, you might as well die.
and another one, lol.
1.WHAT IS YOUR NAME?: eng yuwen
2. WHAT COLOR OF TOP ARE YOU WEARING??: black.
3. WHAT SONGS ARE U LISTENING RIGHT NOW?: john willians - double trouble.
4. WHAT IS YOUR hPHONE NUMBER?: *hint* it has 8 numbers.
5. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?: duck rice. eekk.
6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE: red!
7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW?: humid ahh.
8. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?: my mom.
9. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?: clothes?
10. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS?: no one sent me this!
11. FAVORITE DRINK?: apple with aloe vera! *yumms*
12. WHO DO U LIKE?: everyone but YOU!
13. WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND?: duhh!
14. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT?: netball?
15. EYE COLOR?: black.
16. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?: tried. lol.
17. FAVORITE MONTH?: july, lol. and i wonder why?
18. FAVORITE FOOD?: lol! japanese? hehe.
19. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?: the best bet
20. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?: july 4th.
21. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?: nope, i asked my mom out.
22. FAVORITE BOARD GAME(S): checkers?
23. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT?: eat, read and sleep.
24. FAVORITE SMELL(S): buberry brit. =D
25. CAN YOU TOUCH YOUR NOSE WITH YOUR TONGUE?: nope.
26. BUTTERED, PLAIN OR SALTY POPCORN?: salty without a doubt!
27. FAVORITE CAR?: now, honda s2000.
28. FAVORITE FLOWER?: morning glory! lol.
29. HOW MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING?: 3? lol, unlucky number.
30.CAN YOU JUGGLE?: no!
31. FAVORITE DAY(S): sundays?
32. RED OR WHITE WINE?: red
33. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY?: eat and shop? then eat again?
34. DO YOU CARRY A DONOR CARD?: no.
35. LIFETIME GOAl: to rid my life of YOU. lol, no. to act!
36. FIRST THING U THINK OF WHEN U WAKE UP IN THE
MORNING?: why do i have to wake up so early?
37. WHAT IS YOUR BIRTH DATE?: july 4th.
done! =D
livingherdreams;
+ 9:14 PM
shouts out loud: i miss kim already.
couldnt blog yesterday, shall blog today.
yesterday.
woke at 8. wanted to get up and bathe, but found out that i had a major headache. hai, and i was flu-y. so i decided to skip tuition and went back to sleep. finally woke up at 12.30, which means i missed spongebob. damn, why couldnt i just wkae up? hai. then slacked around the house until i decided to bathe and go to my uncles house. (2 minutes walking distance) then, i went there and eat, and eat and eat and only eat! lol, to think i said no bbq food for me. but well, even my mother didnt bother to stop me. lol. called kim, to ask her what was her flight. i told her to behave herself. dont later, i send off a girl, and got to receive a guy! *winkz* then she made me meet her at changi on thursday! what to do? you dont get a 6 years friend everyday, do you? so i promised her. gosh. then i went home and fell asleep. explains why i didnt blog huh? =p
today.
was supposed to watch harry potter with my brother today. guess what? i woke up early and he told me he got tuition. so smart. so, i decided to slack at home. but, out of a sudden. mr alvin li msged me dating me out. *hah!* so okay, cause his plan to study sounded good. (i havent completed my holiday homework yet!) so we went out and study. and study and study and study. lol, todays boring; cause i only studied. (not because i was with alvin!)but this is the first time i did so much literature notes. wow. lol. going to road safety park tomorrow, with the sec1s. eek, scary. lol. hope they behave themselves. i cant take any more of this havoc, im getting old. lol! =D
my head still hurts.
a place to make my future mine.
livingherdreams;
+ 9:01 PM
Saturday, June 19, 2004
shouts out loud: okay, im spoilt!
haha, i didnt trim my manes in the end. lol. but went walking around town with miss chian while she enjoyed swiping her card. and she asked me what i want for my birthday, which really got me thinking. and since i have a quiz on my blog already, why not another one? i did this myself! =D
Name one thing you really really want now:
1. a pantech G-500 *abit far-fetched; dont worry, this is for my mum to read*
Name another thing you really want:
1. a pair of levis or vintage jeans that i dont actually have to fold! *fine, im short!*
Damn, name all the things you want (*giggles*):
1. a pair of dreamcatcher earrings
2. a schoolbag
3. a clutch
4. burberry brit *smells greeeaaat*
5. the lv handbag *yumms; and its burns your pocket*
6. a pair of sandals from U.R.S.
7. 11 marks for o'levels *you cant help me, i know*
8. contacts *hah!*
i'll update when i think of somemore, lol. meanwhile, miss chian! =D hehe.
being able to be me in front of you is the biggest gift, thank you.
livingherdreams;
+ 11:10 PM
shouts out loud: *coughs*
bad bad way to start a day? wake up and realise your left tonsil is swollen, red and double the size of the other. what if i really have to get my tonsils removed? =x i hope not, its painful. my head still hurts. this is weird, ive never been sick for so long before. lets just hope i recover. go back to school, and face my a maths teacher. i havent tols her im dropping her subject yet. eekks!
have you ever felt like you could read a song? i dont mean songs with lyrics. i did, last night. just before i went to bed, i plugged my earphones into my ears and played whatever that was in my mp3. okay, it was the harry potter soundtrack; i should have known. and then, it came to this song. wow, i dont know what happen. it just seemed like the notes were converting into words, and i was reading it. i could tell what the composer was trying to express, i could read his mind! its freaky, but its so nice.
im going to meet miss chian later, to get her it-has-already-reached-my-nose fringe cut. talk about me looking like a mop. =x
arg, theres a bbq at my uncles house tomorrow. and guess who cant eat? yea, me! *sulks*
something wicked this way comes.
livingherdreams;
+ 12:03 PM
Friday, June 18, 2004
shouts out loud: its gone!
yea, my fevers gone! lol, im so happy. i wonder if my brain got toasted in the process, my thinking has been pretty slow recently. like when miss chian called me, i knew it was her; but guess what? i picked up and ask who was it! maybe it was like that all along! hehe.
received kimberly's message today, asking what i want my jersey number *netball* to be. and guess? 12! henry's number in euro. was torn between henry and torres, but i chose henry. prove i aint racist! oops. =x but henry's really good, though he hasnt really proved it in euro 2004 yet. well, at least france is at the top of the group. haha!
did i mention that my tonsils are coming out? i bet they are. especially my left one. i was coughing today and it felt like it could have just glided out if i didnt hold on to it! cool, people usually pay alot to remove their tonsils you know. the dead would probably turn in their grave if they found out i did mine for free. =)
meeting miss chian tomorrow, to trim my tresses, mane, hair, whatever? the thing thats residing on my head. its growing beyond human belief. i cant see if i keep my frigne straight! lol, i mean, i look like that dog breed which looks like a kitchen mop! and i look like rupert grint! yea, the mop! gawd, but i dont want to cut my hair. i want to keep it till it reaches my *ahem* and then perm it! hehe! stop dreaming about rebonding girls! the straight iron plate hair is out! curls are in. believe me, i read mags. lol. so, im going to keep my hair long this time. for the sake of graduation night, for the sake of looking more like a girl, for real. lol! =D
theres a carla santini in everyone's life, and i found mine. go away!
livingherdreams;
+ 10:04 PM
Thursday, June 17, 2004
shouts out loud: sick.
17 more days.
im so glad i actually woke up. okay, it feels damn bad to be sick. okay, this is nonsense. who feels great when theyre sick? lol. but i seriously think its time to change my family doctor.
okay, so yesterday; after one dosage, my condition wasnt getting any better. so i thought: maybe i will be fine after a few more dosages. and last night, before going to sleep i took my temperature. 37.3 degrees. i was so so so happy! lol. but this morning, guess what? it returned to 38.5 degrees again! hai, what good is medicine? =| and the medicine tastes horrible; very horrible. and i have to swallow 6 seperate pills. imagine the amount of water you need to swallow the pills; its enough to make you full. hai, so i ended up eating a piece of bread for lunch. hai, if theres one good thing from being sick, it is that i dont feel like eating. lol. =p
im supposed to meet miss chian to get her hair cut tomorrow? gawd, i wonder if i can even wake up. lol, okay, im joking. suddenly, i feel like eating sushi. i dont know why.
i swear im going to finish my holiday homework this time.
maybe i dont need you to survive! lol, i dont!
livingherdreams;
+ 2:55 PM
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
shouts out loud: 39.1 degrees!
that was my highest temperature recorded today, and as im typing here; it is 38.5 degrees. lol.
was supposed to meet kimberly to go to the gym today, bt when i woke up, my eyes with radiating. yea, as in giving out hot air. lol. so i took my temperature, and to my horror, it was 38.9! lol. i wanted to get up and tell my pop, but the moment i sit up, i felt the whole room spinning in front of me. so, nope; not a good idea. called kim to tell her that i was running a temperature.
went to the doctors shortly after that. did i mention how much i dislike my pop? he was scolding me for being sick when we were in the way to clinic! what is his problem! it aint my fault that i feel sick so suddenly. arg. then came home, ate my medicine and went back to sleep. was expecting to feel better when i woke up, but my temperature went up! think its time i find another family doctor. lol.
feeling slightly better now, lol. no more giddy-ness. lol. =D its been a long time since i was so sick.
its more than just love to keep it going.
livingherdreams;
+ 10:50 PM
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
shouts out loud: crapp.
19 more days.
the best bet is crap. but it is its crappiness which is so singaporean. lol, i mean. if youve watched the show you would understand what i mean. no doubt i must raise my hands and admit defeat to jack neo who used hokkien so tactfully. lol, i was just wondering whether it was a chinese or dialect show. but if youre in a really bad mood and youre lacking of some jokes, watch it. it'll make you laugh, laugh at its intelligence or at its stupidity; you'll have to fidn it out yourself.
why do i sound like a movie ad in my blog? =x
im going to the gym tomorrow again! yea! gym! gym! gym! im nuts. lol, and after that i shall take my brother to go watch harry potter with me. lol. such a nice sister i am. =p
im having a really bad flu. i dont know why, just came all of a sudden. damn it, not sure if i can still jog tomorrow. oh no, how? i like crying. hai. i shall try to go stop myself from tearing.
i finally bought the harry potter soundtrack! gawd! its so damn cool. and daniel radcliffe is so damn hot. *yumms.* lol, this world is unfair. *grinns.*
nows the chance to let time stand still.
livingherdreams;
+ 10:33 PM
shouts out loud: bored; to tears.
so bored, i started koping things from yuchernn's blog. hah! too bad; if you still dont know her new blog address! hah! lousy fool! =p
Starting time: 14 37
Full name: eng yuwen
Sex: female
Birthday: independence day! =)
Name three bad habits you have:
1)paranoid
2)overly paranoid
3)extremely paranoid
Name three animals you like:
1)kittens
2)puppies
3)anything that is not dumb
Name four television shows you love:
1)spongebob squarepants
2)what i like about you
3)grounded for life
4)magic school bus *im watching it now!*
Name three drinks you regularly drink:
-water
-milk
-apple with aloe vera! *yumms*
Have you ever...
1. Fallen for one of your best friends?
hmm; i think so. lol, yea.
2. Had one of your best friends fall in love with
huh?
3. Been in love?
love is a big word to use; my friend.
4. Used someone?
to do what? lol, ive used my sister to get me a cup of water before. does it count?
5. Ever been used by someone?
yea, my sister asked me to get her a cup of water too.
6. Cheated on someone?
cheating is bad.
7. Done something you regret?
yea.
8. The last person you touched?
my computer; oh you asked person.
9. You talked to?
miss chian.
10. You hugged?
my bolster.
11. You yelled at?
my pop.
12. Who broke your heart?
technically; its impossible to break muscle tissues. *winks*
13. Colour of your hair?
black,was suppose to be natural brown; or so said the damn dye kit.
14. Have tattoos?
a butterfly one; i want that.
15. Have a girlfriend/boyfriend?
i cant possibly have a boyfriend, i need to focus on my acting career! lol. *confessionsofateenagedramaqueen*
16. Like to dance?
yea! without a single doubt!
17. Think you are cultured?
im not cultured; i thought only milk can be cultured? =p
18. Like to drive fast?
if im on a bike that is. =D
19. Believe in God or Devil?
GOD
20. Who do you talk to on the phone with?
my mum?
21. What should you be doing right now?
bathing so i can go meet miss chian. lol.
22. What are you listening to?
lindsay lohan - that girl
24. Favorite Season?
autumn.
25. Is ice cream the best thing in the world?
only if i made it. *laughs*
26. Who is your favorite singer?
lindsay? myabe hilary; shall see.
27. Single flower or a dozen?
999.
28. Silver, gold or platinum?
i'll have to say, platinum. even the name sounds so cool.
29. Candle lit dinner in a restaurant or at
home?
depends on what kind of food im served with at home. lol.
30. Roses?
white ones only; please.
31. Silly or serious romantic?
sweet. lol, told you im bored.
33. Do you consider yourself a romantic?
depends on who im with, i guess.
34. Watched a sunrise/sunset?
yes! and its the most beautiful thing ive ever seen.
35. What CD is in your CD player right now?
forbidden city - the soundtrack.
36. Who is your favorite film star?
orlando? can i write more? please please please? lol.
37. Favorite Disney characters?
does spongebob count?
38. Favorite fast food?
mos. burger that is. lol.
39. Favorite book?
harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban! lol, best out of all the 5!
40. Favorite sports teams?
heh, arsenal.
41. Favorite song?
mandy?
42. What room is your computer in?
living room.
43. Happy or Scary movies?
scary comedies! there are such movies okay!
44. What will you be when you grow up?
the next drama queen! lol, i think.
45. Who will respond the quickest?
definitely not miss chian.
46. End Time?
14 55 *damn, im slow.*
someone please steal the moon for me.
livingherdreams;
+ 2:33 PM
Monday, June 14, 2004
shouts out loud: love my country; not.
and you know why i say that? if you refer to my previous post, i actually wrote that singapore has 4 billion people! hah! BILLION. this is dumb. we're not THAT big. lol, in fact we're small. =p
went to the gym today. started at 9.30 instead of 9 because we were late, had to buy the ticket and then they had to accompany me up to buy a towel again. lol, but it was nice. i mean it felt great to be exercising instead of munching at home. lol. but i dont like this gym, im going to the toa payoh one this wednesday! wohoo! =D my muscles are sore now, but. lol. nvm. enhoyed myself alot!
suddenly, ive got nothing to do! i mean, nothing as in nothing. lol. i came home and slept all the way till now, that mean 5 hours. 3 hours. i hardly have the chance to nap like that. its okay, i dont mind sleeping. bleahz.
oh yes! rachel thinks that daniel radcliffe is hot too! lol, finally; someone agrees with me! =D
mary-kate and ashley are going seperate! they are taking the reins over their million-coporate, Dualstar entertainment and going seperate! lol. theyre attending college and doing different stuff. mary-kate wants to paint and cook! lol, ironical. so its no more olsen twins but mary-kate and ashley. lol, good bye to hollywood's best known twins. =)
search within my soul.
livingherdreams;
+ 5:35 PM
Sunday, June 13, 2004
shouts out loud: im a hollywood giiirrl!
and thats not something bad, it just goes to show how much chance i give our local performers. lol! i mean, hollywood is cool, intriguing, not to mention; scandalous. (the aaron carter, lindsay lohan, hilary duff case.) i mean the closest we can get is anita sarawak. (?!?!) i dont even think i spelt her name correctly. it just goes to show how much our showbiz here is recognised. okay, we have jack neo. who i very much respect for being able to capture the touchy yet common themes in singapore and make money out of it. i mean, thats like what? 1 in 4 billion? okay, we have steph sun. thats likes another 1 out of the 4 billion. i mean, it just depresses me and make me think how can i be so sure i may be the next 1 out of the 4 billion people waiting to sink on the small island? *sigh*
tuition. late again; cause jing ting watched spongebob! no fair, i cant watch him no more; no more. shucks! *whines* okay, useless. went there and did this worksheet on patterns. okay, not that i suck at this, but it really was confusing. lol, i actually did a problem only to realise i copied the first half set of the sequence form question 3 and the next from question 4! surprising ive got an answer. lol, life.
greece won! stupid portugal! haha; i didnt bet! =)
im going to the gym! im going to the gym! i going to the gym! lol, yes! i need to lose weight! good! good start! lol, just hope i dont get depressed when kim starts to outdo at everything. yea, EVERYTHING. lol. thatll be tomorrow.
did i mention that im waiting for mean girls, ella enchanted to come out. also, i want to watch hello broadway! but rachels right, the cheapest ticket can already burn a hole in the pocket. damn it. im going to my grandpas house; *weak grinns.
i love unpredictability! =)
livingherdreams;
+ 3:17 PM
Saturday, June 12, 2004
shouts out loud: lagging!
i just watched shrek 2 today. lol, i know im lagging. but i just simply couldnt find someone to watch with me. well, i went with alvin today. seems like he was just as slow as i was. =p its a really stupid yet hilarious show! i simply love it, why? cause it made fun of so much stories, like lord of the rings! nice nice show, that tells us that looks doesnt matter! lol.
othello was greaat. in case you didnt know, othello is one of shakespeare's four big tragedies; including my favourite Hamlet. lol, i mean its cool. though it was a four hour long production, the director did a good job of exploring the tragedy of othello and iago seperately instead of lumping it together; which makes iago the bad guy. but by looking at it differently, people do realise that instead of iago just being the bad guy, he is himself a tragedy. lol, sorry for crapping about othello here. im just overly excited about how good the play was; although we couldnt catch it at first. this just gives me an additional reason to do drama. the ability to instill scuh excitment in teens like me in many years to come. lol. =)
met kimberly for dinner. her dinner, i didnt eat. lol, then went around shopping. okay, i want a clutch and a pair of jeans. found my jeans, couldnt find my clutch. nvm, i shall continue shopping. bought my us seventeen ( damn it, its 8 bucks!)and kim bought these books that were the ones harry potter used in hogwarts. it has really stupid stuff written in it. =D
damn it, theres tuition tml.
whats so beautiful about life is how unfair it is.
livingherdreams;
+ 9:33 PM
Friday, June 11, 2004
shouts out loud: i will live me dream; i just know it.
boo! go away, anti-potter people. it was a nice film and thats that. just because the third film is an emotional one that lacks action flick doesnt mean it aint nice! its important to understand how this teens grow up and how they are feeling. like hermonie's security blanket is actually her books and how harry may be with the group but is not partaking in their conversations. gawd, its a nice and essential film from chamber to goblet. so dont complain! hah! it doesnt mean you have to have voldermort to make it a nice film. though i do agree the book is nicer. but the flick stands alone, so boo!
a wave of emotions just overcame me. and i suddenly found back the confidence i thought i have lost for good. lol, its weird. but i have this feeling i can live my dream; i just feel it. and prove all those hypocrites and cynics out there wrong. very wrong.
camp was fun, for the ncos maybe. i mean, it was maybe perhaps really a leisure camp as many of our officers have pointed out. but, hey i really did enjoyed myself. there was seriously a lack of food for the ncos and we ended up sharing rations with the cadets. i mean, bonding! how sweet can we get? this camp also allowed me to see the true colours of my sqaud mates. both good and bad. lol, i mean it; the bad part. and the worst thing is my ear kept oozing pus while i was in camp. haha! thank goodness i was smart enough to bring my solution. the first night, i slept in the ava room. and thanks to razi, my handphone kept everyone awake cause it was ringing the whole night, which kept all the girls awake. oops! hehe. second night ended up in the staff lounge with my female officer who simply refused to sleep alone with my oc. lol! it was interesting doing refelctions with the cadets. lol! this is the last thing i'll be doing for np, this is the last memory i'll have. and the good thing is, i like this memory. its sweet. lol.
youre too far from me to feel my pain.
'i couldnt possibly have a boyfriend, i need to focus on my acting career.'- lola cep.
livingherdreams;
+ 12:13 AM
Wednesday, June 09, 2004
shouts out loud: the only memory.
i remembered blogging before leaving for camp, blogger sucks.
camp. wow. i dont know where to start. maybe by first thanking desmond, han bin, rong li, rong zhen and kian how for coming down and helping the inexpreienced bunch of ncos. lol.
can i blog again tomorrow? im tired. lol.
to you, the leadership in me will never surpass a korean slave. will it?
livingherdreams;
+ 10:19 PM
Sunday, June 06, 2004
shouts out loud: expecto patronum!
woohoo! why is everyone saying that azkaban isnt up to standard? hey, cut that mexican guy some slack! harry potter has evolved from this kiddish-robes-all-year-round to a much more grown up film. i think alfonso did a great job, compared to chris. its so much darker, so much more intense. yea, i know. the book got cut up until it was nearly unrecognisable, but hey! the first two books were similiar! its so wonderful to be sitting in a theatre, with the first two movies in your memory and phoof! three grown up beautiful actors are staring back into your face. they have grown so much under scrutiny and i think they did a great job! it was worth my 6 months wait for it to come out. its nice, for all potter, radcliffe, grint and watson fans out there. its like s i-must-see-it-at-least-twice-no-matter-what movie. hehe. but, the firebolt. well, see for yourself. youre hearing this from the movie addict herself. =D
was supposed to meet jing ting in the late afternoon for tuition. but guess what? i pulled her to school with me to hand in some form for othello. lol. then we went to tp where we were later joined by peng fei! thank you peng fei! he came down from yishun! lol, then we went to the library. cool, borrowed books again. thanks to peng fei, if not i wont be able to borrow! *winkz*
then me and jing ting went for tuition. okay, the place stinks. the air-con is not functioning, but look on the bright side. the tables are new! wow, so much for being optimistic. but it was okay, i mean. just lazy of me to come to tp every sunday; thats all. i'll get used to it, i think. hope i do. haha! the admin lady who works at my tuition center has a son. no, thats not wonderful. but her son is my cadet! lol, and hes going to our camp. lol!
i hope the camp turns out well. i really really do. cause if it does, it will be the best parting gift kcpnp can ever give to me. =) tml, sunday, yes, we're going down to school. to tie rope obstacles and do up the rest of the admin stuff. thanks to those external help! lol.
you're the best knight any princess can have.
something wicked this way comes.
livingherdreams;
+ 1:20 AM
Friday, June 04, 2004
shouts out loud: i give up, on my life.
i give up. i give up. i dont know what to do, other than choosing to give up. im so emotionally battered and physically drained i cant find anything else to hold on to. i give up.
i give up. i tried my best, to be there for you. i gave you more than i thought i would, but you never wanted to receive. im so tired. theres a limit to giving, and my limit is near. i try so hard to understand you, but you shrink away from me. i really dont know what i did wrong. i really dont know. i give up.
i give up. i hate doing things last minute. i dont know why i am actually doing all these. why?
my hand hurts. its got this burning sensation. i was in contact with kerosene for at least 2 hours today. wow, without a glove. i might as well drink the kerosene.
at least i had a happy dinner.
for a person who likes to talk, her silence can be deafening.
livingherdreams;
+ 10:45 PM
Wednesday, June 02, 2004
shouts out loud: black.
black is the colour which depicts anguish, depression, loneliness and eternity. thats what so cool about black. and furthermore, it reminds me of the adams family! ive learnt to dress to my mood, so im going to dress black until im feeling better again. yeap.
went out with jing ting today. for awhile. and i really mean a short while. im feeling kind of guilty now. lol. went to heereen. guess who we saw? ryan boye! he is actually working. working for who? my boss! lol. talk about conincidence! then i met zhi wei too. its been a long time, so talk alittle with him. both of them are in town selling apple. too bad couldnt catch a glimpse of that junior tan guy.
came home and sleep. before i sleep, i left a bowl of cereal beside my bed. when i woke up, guess what. there was like a swarm of ants attacking the leftover milk. gawd. i was screaming my lungs off, and my borhter had to came in and dispose of that ants-infested bowl for me. lol. what would i do without a 'man' in my house? lol!
i dreamt of you last night. i dreamt of a you i wanted you to be last night. someone who was frank with me, someone who didnt neglect me. but people dont call dreams, dreams for nothing.
anna and the king is showing! lol!
you taught me to feel, to feel the pain. the pain only you can make me feel.
livingherdreams;
+ 6:35 PM
Tuesday, June 01, 2004
shouts out loud: why dream of love, why love has died.
o'levels is over, but that doesnt necessarily mean that all your troubles goes with it too. it certainly doesnt for me. i have a cap to plan, a confidence to pick up and actions to answer for. who ever remembered having such a messed up hectic holiday. but its okay, if you have watched confessions of a teenage drama queen, you know i'll pull through. =) i think.
a maths, erm. she actually finished on time! =p
suddenly, im starting to appreciate time. its like you really get to learn to cherish alot of things when you dont have time. and in this case, i have learnt to cherish time itself. because i need it desperately. i need 48hours a day to live a full life. maybe more. lol. time can do so much, you wont want to believe yourself.
its not like i want to do everything. its not like i enjoy stressing myself. its not like im shrinking away from my responsibilities and pushing it to someone else. its not like i cant give up. i can give up. i can leave everything to be done by others. i can give up my stress. yet theres a worrying i cant chase away. and a guy who doesnt like to see me there up high. what am i supposed to do?
the fire that burns within your heart. the pain that tears your life apart. the rain that falls from broken skies. the love i lost beneath the lies. and must i face this truth alone. is the end of all ive known. the years i gave, the tears ive cried. why dream of love, when love has died?
i dont understand. what did i do wrong. it hurts to have someone close to you ignoring you. i know somethings wrong. tell me! what can you not say to me? anything but silence is something i ask. even if it hurts. please.
perhaps the weak believe that they are strong.
livingherdreams;
+ 8:49 PM